[xxisabellaxx]

-sigh- where to begin.... i feel dead, pain killers won't even take away the pain now. i'm alone and shattered, i can't bring myself to cut. I'm just to tired to do anything. My life is a prison and i can't escape. People in my life don't understand the constant pain and fear i deal with they always downgrade my feelings to just a bored teenager with things see isn't happy about. nothing is going to change the way i feel....Something is wrong with me... i feel numb nearly everyday, i hear things sometimes, i don't eat like i used too. too me my life has no meaning... and i can't see my future as anything but this.... i just don't know.

[jelly-bean]

Have you talked to your parents about how you feel? You need to ask them to let you see a doctor so you can tell him how you feel and get some help. I don't think your parents understand how serious it is. You need to have some therapy and meds to help you. Show them what you wrote here and maybe it will help them understand. Let us know how it goes!

[whimsygirl]

Agreeing completely with jelly-bean Best Wishes to you ~whimsy

[Rohag]

Hello, xxIsabellaxx!

Originally Posted by xxisabellaxx

...pain killers won't even take away the pain now...i can't bring myself to cut...i hear things sometimes

These are troubling. Well, it's all troubling.

Originally Posted by jelly-bean

Show them [your parents] what you wrote here and maybe it will help them understand.

Excellent advice! In case it doesn't alert them to the seriousness of your situation, could you take your symptoms to your school nurse or counselor?

[keepingalice]

I am happy to see that you are on here reaching out. That is a big step, because I am now 45, have somehow managed to live, most of my years are lost, but finally in 2008 I went for help. I couldn't tell anyone how I felt as a teen, young adult, and my life would be different if I would have taken some positive steps toward healing. I was embarrassed, my parents were embarrassed, and the shame I felt was devastating. It kept me quite, up until now. But even so...this is such a difficult step to play nice with others, especially when I am full of anger, despair, confusion, and all the other stuff locked inside. If my therapist knew I was on a support group page he would be estatic! I hope I said something of encouragement to you...

[Dan12345]

I had this feeling around a year ago, feeling like the future was black and not caring about anyone or anything, I went to the doctor and he gave me some medication explaining that it's a chemical imbalance in my brain and low and behold it worked, yes I still feel depressed but not nearly as bad as before. Tell your parents how you feel and tell them your not yourself, you have nothing to be ashamed of, nobody with depression does! You only get 1 shot at life make the most of it.

Dan x

[Dan12345]

I had this feeling around a year ago, feeling like the future was black and not caring about anyone or anything, I went to the doctor and he gave me some medication explaining that it's a chemical imbalance in my brain and low and behold it worked, yes I still feel depressed but not nearly as bad as before. Tell your parents how you feel and tell them your not yourself, you have nothing to be ashamed of, nobody with depression does! You only get 1 shot at life make the most of it.

Dan x