Is it possible I have it?

Hello, I'm Kayla and I'm 16. I would post in the introductions section of the board but I figured I'd get more attention on the post here.

There are a lot of issues I need to discuss, but this one is the most major, so I wanted to tackle this first. It may be a little long, but I'd more than appreciate it if it was all read! I'll try to make it easy to read.

1.)I just have crippling,crippling boredom all the time, everyday. It's nearly impossible for me to be entertained, and when I finally do find something appealing I either lose interest quickly or just can't focus my attention on it. Everyone I know my age is entertained VERY easily, but nothing ever excites me. I just feel like the part of my brain that's responsible for entertainment is missing. Simple suggestions like "Go play a game" or "Go out and make some friends" is useless.
Nothing, and I mean nothing, satisfies me. Once in a blue moon, I'll just wake up in the morning in an good mood where I can seem to be entertained like a normal person, and boy does it feel great. But it almost never happens and when it does it fades rather quickly

Some days will be average (I'll be bored, but usually listening to music or blogging will keep me busy, though not thoroughly entertained)

and some will be barren(Impossible to do anything. Literally too bored to eat,drink,or even sleep.)

2.)Everything is hopeless. I have no aspirations or interests. The one thing that keeps me going is my desire to live in NYC, but sometimes that doesn't even seem exciting. Sometimes I think to myself if there was anything, ANYTHING, I would wish to have or be doing right now what would it be? And I can't think of anything. There's nothing I wish to do or see, at least which is realistic (that one unrealistic dream being to meet Paul McCartney). Everything just seems like a stretch of bland nothingness.

3.)I often have no focus. This isn't something I had when I was in elementary school. I thought I had A.D.D, but apparently the symptoms of that are supposed to have been evident in childhood.

I don't really remember when all this started, it's just kind of a thing that just is

Any help here or input would be appreciated...

It sounds to me like you're really depressed! I think you need to talk to your parents -- I know most teens don't like to talk to their folks about much of anything, but you really need to. And you need to STRESS that this is NOT a "phase" that teenagers go thru -- this is something that has been going on for too long. Tell them that you wrote in to us, and we think you are very depressed. We think that you need to see a therapist and soon. Ask your doctor to refer you to a GOOD therapist. He willl know a good one to send you to. You really need to talk to someone (other than your parents). I'm sure it would do you a world of good.

I hope your parents will take heed and send you to one. I wish yoo the very best. And PLEASE -- let us know how it turns out, will you? We really would like to know. We care about you. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee

You do sound depressed. I have experienced pieces of what you experience. Mostly, the boredom. You may be bored because you are depressed, you may simply find what is around you and what is available to you to be uninspiring. I suggest you find some books. There are more bad books than good ones, so check it out for like 2,3,4 chapters and if it doesn't feel right, if you don't like the style, go get another one.

I think books are much more stimulating than other media. They give you much more information and more time to contemplate it. Keep searching and try to find more and more and more things on this earth. Pop culture is very narrow. It deals with film, music, fashion, sports, and politics. It rarely leaves these boundaries to explore the real world. So explore more things. Explore your neighborhood, go to parks, look at clouds, sit in the grass and read books or strike up conversations with strangers or do anything else you want.

Just realize you've seen the tiniest piece of the world and you have so much out there to discover and find interest in.

Also, you can always see therapists. Find the right one, find someone who listens and cares, and build a relationship. Build your mental health if you think it is faltering. There are plenty of ways to do this without therapists, but they are trained to help you and usually do.

Thanks for the responses everyone.

I've never been a big reader. I lose my train of thought reading more than any other form of entertainment, plus I'm very picky with what type of books I like to read.
I just have no desire to do any of those things, such as explore my neighborhood. Nothing seems interesting. It doesn't help that I live in an awful area with nothing to do.

I went to a therapist twice and I hated it. I'm extremely awkward in social situations, (I'll make another thread about that...) and I simply didn't get anything out of it.

I hate to be stubborn here, but I just feel like I can't get out of the hole I'm in!

And if I told my parents, they wouldn't think anything of it at all. I've tried hinting it to them and they just say I'm down in the dumps a bit or I need to "find friends" or "find a hobby".

My mom is big on natural supplements and there are a few supposed to help with depression. One is called phenylalenine, which actually is a mood booster. It actually works pretty well a little less than 50% of the time. However when it does, it only lasts an hour or two. St. John's Wort never worked for me. My mom would never put me on any type of actual medication though, which is what I feel I need, since someone just trying to trying to talk to me never really does any help for me.

I think u may be depressed. I would give therapy anothee try. Sometimes it takes a few to get a good t. No joke.

About the add thing. If you are smart and can get through ok, sometimes people don't hit trouble until high school, or even college. It is quite diagnosable as an adult. I was diagnosed at 15. So... That could be something to look into once you got yourself a therapist.

I think this is your problem. If you believe you will never get out of the hole, you never will. If you want to get out and make efforts, you will start to see steps. I compare curing depression to walking up a gradual slope, you make each step and make progress, but you might not see the progress you're making at the time.

I think you should push yourself to do something new whether or not its appealing. Keep trying until you find something you enjoy. If you don't like books, you could do short stories. If you don't like reading, you could draw. If you don't like any of those things, maybe do some stumble upon, I don't really know what you should do, just have faith and stay awake and lively.