I feel like I'm losing my mind

I just found out my no good mother (who abused me for almost 15 years and almost killed me on several occasions and always because she was drinking and drugging her boyfriends would mess with me) is getting married to one of those creeps.this one is a biker .She is not allowed to even visit me cause the last time she came she told me she was gonna hurt me bad (the only reason she was here is cause she had my birth regestration papers,and I needed the originals)where I was born a person has to go to the town the was born at in person no mail ever since she called me I been spacing out also spending alot of time journing but sleeping alot today and feeling real down. I hate feeling like this I called my former therapist and she said I was sounding like I was depressed and wouldn't be suprised if started disasociating sorry for bothering everyone

You're not bothering me. I'm glad the last visit is over. I'm sorry you have to dismiss your mom, and now who would be a step dad... not having family is tough. (((hugs)))