[whenwillitend]

I'm not quite sure where to put this, so please move if in the wrong spot.

A friend of mine called me earlier. (We met about a year ago at a psych hospital.) She told me she wasn't feeling good, that she was having problems with her family, especially her mom. Then she told me that she had just taken 8 (certain meds). When I asked her, she said she couldn't promise me that she wouldn't take more later on.
So I gave her two choices, either go to the ER or I'd call an ambulance for her. She lives alone and doesn't have a car, plus I wouldn't have let her drive anyway, and she didn't have anyone to take her, so I told her I would call her an ambulance. She kept saying she doesn't want to go to the hospital. And I kept telling her that that really doesn't matter at this point. She sounded so drowsy too.
So eventually I told her I was going to hang up and call 911. She grudgingly agreed. So I called (and nobody answered, at 911!!! They called back after I hung up), and they sent people to check on her.
My friend texted me later from the ER, she told me they were putting her on an M1, and that they were sending her to the one hospital here in town that we both hate. When I asked her she also said that she had taken more pills after I hung up with her earlier.
I apologized for sending her there, but also told her that I needed her to be safe.

Now I feel really bad. It's the one hospital that I absolutely refuse to go to. I feel so guilty. Plus, what I did to her was exactly what happened a few weeks ago with me and my old T. Which resulted in huge scars on my wrists and the loss of my T. I know exactly what it felt like when my T gave me those exact same two choices. How it made me panic. How I kept telling her I didn't want to go. She called 911 anyway, and that's what I did to my friend.
And on top of all that, I feel like such a hypocrite. I still get suicidal quite frequently myself. Making sure she's safe and kept alive goes against anything I'm feeling right now. How can I tell someone else they have to live, when I don't feel like it myself?

But rationally, I think I did the right thing. Didn't I?

[Yoda]

Yes you did the right thing.

[unaluna]

I agree, you did the right thing. kind of unfair of your friend to put you in that position, but apparently she thought you would understand, and I think deep down, she hoped you would react the way you did.

[tigerlily84]

I agree with hankster. If she didn't want you to help her, she wouldn't have called you in the first place.

[shinkikker]

You most definitely did the right thing. Yeah, it might be a sucky experience for her, but she's alive. It's okay to feel bad about it, I think. Sometimes the right choice is a difficult choice. I think you did a good thing and should be proud of yourself. Not everyone would do that for their friend.

[missbelle]

You definately did the right thing!!!! You really did...you might have saved her life!!!

[jelly-bean]

A while back a friend of mine brought her kids and came to stay with me. A couple of days later she woke me up and told me she had overdosed. I called an ambulance for her and a babysitter for her kids and my son. My neighbor and I spent all night at the hospital keeping her awake so she would not die. She thanked me later and I have never been sorry that I did it. Your friend wanted help or she would not have told you. You did the only thing you could do and it was the right thing. Good for You!

[whenwillitend]

I don't think my friend thought I would actually call 911. She kept saying that she only took 8. But she also said she couldn't promise not to take any more.
She also said "You don't have my address". I don't know what made her think that. I've been to her place many times.

I feel bad because I think she thought it would be safe to call me. She probably expected me to come over and stay with her for a while. Which I would have done had she not overdosed already.

I'm afraid she'll never trust me again, that she'll never tell me anything again.