Hiding=Avoiding

I'm hiding out here instead of unpacking the groceries (which I bought...6 hours ago...ooops!) and going to bed. I have been really 'on edge' all evening...since I was last on the computer when I added another complaint about my access arrangements with my daughter to the list. I've just realised that it is probably that which is giving me such a...a...ummm, an angry and aggravated feeling inside. Stupid thing though is that once again all my feelings are pushed deep inside and I don't REALLY feel them. I am awae that they are there, and that may be worse than actually being able to feel angry, or miserable, or like the 'fight's over'. Ohh, I don't know. All I need to do is get this out of my mind, venting it all away (if only lol) and get to bed- after putting the groceries away- so I can actually manage getting up to no2 in the morning. Much later and I would have a major issue of 'morning-itis' to contend to. No need for any replies to this post- as I said in my last post, it's a great way to 'journal' without putting it all down on paper. I feel safe enough here (thanks so much to you all, you are such a wonderful group of supportive, caring ppl who do whatever they can to support other members no matter what) and I very VERY much doubt that anyone viewing this that knows me would link it straight to me. So again, thanks everyone .
xxx irish