[FaithLoveHope]

Hello everyone. I am glad I finally got up the nerve to join a group. I am looking forward to reading some stories here and hoping I can be a help to you and you will to me. While the doctors can't agree on a complete diagnosis for my mental health, the one thing they all concur on is major depressive disorder. Looking back, I have to say my depression began around 7th grade. I have no idea what triggered it at that time but that is the first time I thought about taking my life. I am now in my late 30s and hoping to get a hold of this finally because I am studying to become a counselor but first I have to get myself right. Today I am finding myself crying over these two stray kittens in my backyard. Its getting cold outside and I worry for them. This leads to me feeling their fear of loud trucks, other animals, weather, etc. The problem with this is I let this sadness consume me and I know it is so ridiculous. I know I have had very high anxiety since last week so that may be contributing. I just know for three days now I have been sinking deeper and deeper into that black hole I am sure most of you are familiar with. I am sure you all will hear everything about me because I am an open book with just about everyone I come in contact with. Thank you all for letting me vent. Have a goo day.

[NishQuiche92]

I understand completely...I was at a very high point a few days ago, to where I was able to get up, clean the house, cook some food, run some errands, and I felt normal...but it only lasts about a day or two, before I am sinking back down...and it feels like you are trapped and drowning and wont be able to climb back out...I totally understand how that feels....and its good you joined! It has helped me so much to hear other stories that I can relate to...
I can't really help in any way other than being here to say I read what you wrote and wish you the best...but as for the kittens, try not to worry...I have raised litters upon litters of kittens, and even though it snows outside in the winter...cats are crafty, and can instinctually find hiding places, and ways of keeping warm and finding food. If that doesn't ease your mind though, try setting up a little makeshift shelter for them in your backyard...maybe you have an empty bin and old towel or blanket laying around that you can put out, with the occasional table scraps? (no bread though, try to keep it to meats and dairy if need be). Feel better!

[nevadan2112]

Hi fellow newbie and welcome!
I feel your pain; I am in the down side of a depressive swing myself. Of course it always gets worse this time of year, but it is worse this year as I am separated from my son for the first time due to a recent divorce. So I know there are reasons, but I still feel the blackness welling up at the oddest times, when everything else seems to be going okay. But coming into these forums seems to help, so keep coming back to see us!

[Dan12345]

Hello, can totally relate to this. If you ever need a chat pm me. It's great that you had the courage to pist here!

Dan

[missbelle]

Welcome!!! So glad you are here!!

[FaithLoveHope]

Thanks everyone. I felt a little better after talking my feelings out yesterday. I also put out a box with blankets so that eased my uneasiness about the cats. I am just praying today is better than yesterday but so far, not so much. Hope you all are well and blessed today.