Sad and I hate life

At age nine I was constantly raped for a year. When I was 13 I was molested by my god brother. I have battled with self injury since I was 14. I'm 20 almost 21. I tired to kill myself several times and as of lately I have been wanting to die. I have no friends my bf sucks! 3 years and he really sucks. My family sucks even more I lost my job. You know what lifes been so rude to me and unfair. I need someone to make things right.

Sweetie, I read your post and I have to say how sorry I am that from such a young age you have had such a horrendous time. Raped at 9 yrs old, not that age matters, rape is an horrific violation. You really do have my sincere sympathy and I extend to you my warmest thoughts that life gets better. Has the person who raped you been brought to justice ? It's never too late to get justice, no matter how hard it may seem, you owe yourself and possibly others that. It's not revenge, it's justice for yourself and maybe other future victims.
If your bf sucks, it clearly is not what you want, is not making you happy, why continue with the relationship. It's better to be alone than in a wrong relationship. Get out, now !
I hope you gain support here, and take on board my comments. I may be a miserable old bit*h but I'm a wise, old miserable bit*h ! (see my posts) Take care x

Honey - You have gone thru some horrible events in your life. You've been violated and molested, but yet you've survived and GOD was there with you the whole time to make sure that you DID survive!!!

If your boyfriend sucks, then get RID of him! He doesn't DESERVE you!! Find a kind, loving, caring person who DOES deserve you! But get rid of this one.

If you've lost your job, look for another one. I know you're depressed sweetie, but if you find another job, I'm sure your self-esteem will rise, and you'll feel better about yourself.

Above ALL, you need to see a therapist. Is there any way you can do this? You really need to talk to someone about everything that has happened to you. You need to talk to a trained professional who deals with things like this. So make an appointment with a good professional therapist, and I'm sure he can work with you to get thru these issues that you have. We're talking about your LIFE here. Please call a therapist, okay? And let us know how you're doing. God bless you and please take care. Hugs, Lee