[Salvatore27]

These days I took a break from work because I have to study for this chartered accountancy paper...I don't know I thought i'd be relieved to be away from work...I hate work you know...I despise being around all those self centered people who couldn't care less about me... So when I got the vacation I was relieved to finally be alone and away...But being at home I still feel nothing...I don't feel happy no matter what I do...I used to like being alone...but now I feel hollow.. Maybe its because now I have absolutely nobody I can call a friend...In the past there has always been somebody whom I have tried befriending but i have simply given up making the effort after getting knocked out time and again...I try the same things that used to make me happy before...but things don't feel the same.. I feel like a machine that keeps going day in and day out and i don't have any passion left in my life...i want to talk to someone with whom i can be myself....i want a shoulder to cry on...I've become so numb that I've even forgotten how to cry...I want to cry and i want to feel again....it's come to the point where i just walk the same streets and see all the familiar faces on that street and i cant talk to anybody.. All i can do is act like a hollow lifeless machine each day....

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Just want you to know I'm thinking of you. Wish I had something helpful to say. I hope you will feel better soon.

[enchanted]

Im so sorry Salvator its so hard to feel good about ourselves when we give so much of ourselves, entrust our hearts and piece of mind into people we think care about us only to be betrayed and hurt time and time again, i can understand how your feeling i have lost myself so many times through bad connections with selfish people. it takes away so much of who we are. we try and be optimistic giving people the benifit of the doubt but we only end up getting hurt. i hope things get better for you and you find some good people who see you for the good kind person you are. This is a lovely site to be a part of so many supportive kind people, i hope you find some peace here and good people to help ease your load. take care