[RS123]

I need someone to talk to, but there's no one.
I just hate my life. I don't want this life anymore. No one would want my life.
It sucks.
Why do I have to be so shy?! Why do I have to be scared of everything?!
I don't want to be like this anymore. But there's nothing I can do.
My life is so dull. Just full of nothingness.
Why am I like this?! I didn't ask for this life!
I hate it. I hate everything.

[Miss Laura]

Hey there RS123,

Why do you hate your life? Do you wanna talk about it?

[RS123]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Hey there RS123,

Why do you hate your life? Do you wanna talk about it?

What's there to like about it? Nothing.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by RS123

I need someone to talk to, but there's no one.
I just hate my life. I don't want this life anymore. No one would want my life.
It sucks.
Why do I have to be so shy?! Why do I have to be scared of everything?!
I don't want to be like this anymore. But there's nothing I can do.
My life is so dull. Just full of nothingness.
Why am I like this?! I didn't ask for this life!
I hate it. I hate everything.

Sorry you hate your life, and that you're lonely (I know how that feels), but I'm confused. You say that you need someone to talk to, and how much your life sucks, but the last time you posted (basically) the same thing, but also asking all kinds of questions regarding therapy....many people sent you hugs, and two of us (myself included), wrote you rather long responses with all kinds of suggestions, trying to be helpful, and show you that we care. And yet you responded to NO ONE in any way, including just to say "thanks". I'm sorry if it sounds blunt, but there are many, many people on this forum who are hurting badly, and when people choose your post to respond to, and sometimes spend a good bit of time doing so, that is a gift. But then you post once again that you have no one to talk to? Hmm. As someone who has suffered from depression for over 40 years, one thing I know is that one needs to at least try to appreciate the little blessings that life does offer. And btw, don't get me wrong, I'm not at all asking to be thanked for my long message now, nor do I think I'm "all that".....just hoping you might run this through your mind some day. All the best to you..... ps.....and oh btw, none of us asked for this life.

[RS123]

Originally Posted by whimsygirl

Sorry you hate your life, and that you're lonely (I know how that feels), but I'm confused. You say that you need someone to talk to, and how much your life sucks, but the last time you posted (basically) the same thing, but also asking all kinds of questions regarding therapy....many people sent you hugs, and two of us (myself included), wrote you rather long responses with all kinds of suggestions, trying to be helpful, and show you that we care. And yet you responded to NO ONE in any way, including just to say "thanks". I'm sorry if it sounds blunt, but there are many, many people on this forum who are hurting badly, and when people choose your post to respond to, and sometimes spend a good bit of time doing so, that is a gift. But then you post once again that you have no one to talk to? Hmm. As someone who has suffered from depression for over 40 years, one thing I know is that one needs to at least try to appreciate the little blessings that life does offer. And btw, don't get me wrong, I'm not at all asking to be thanked for my long message now, not do I think I'm "all that".....just hoping you might run this through your mind some day. All the best to you..... ps.....and oh btw, none of us asked for this life.

Well THANK YOU, for making me feel so much worse.

[RS123]

You know what WHIMSYGIRL, I came on here for a little help and guidance. Not to be told what a horrible selfish crappy person I am.
After your response, I felt like such an idiot. I cried for almost an hour, and for the first time ever in my life I felt this urge to hurt my self someway. Never in my life did I think I'd get so low that I'd even consider harming myself, and I guess we should thank the good chemicals in my brain that I didn't.
Your response is the reason why I'm too scared to talk to people, the reason why I hate asking for help, and the reason why I hate people SO much.
So yeah, THANK YOU.

[dazedandonfused]

Originally Posted by RS123

I need someone to talk to, but there's no one.
I just hate my life. I don't want this life anymore. No one would want my life.
It sucks.
Why do I have to be so shy?! Why do I have to be scared of everything?!
I don't want to be like this anymore. But there's nothing I can do.
My life is so dull. Just full of nothingness.
Why am I like this?! I didn't ask for this life!
I hate it. I hate everything.

Hi RS123,

I'm sorry for what your going through and I hope that things get better for you. I'm here if you need a friend or just want to talk.

Dazed

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by RS123

You know what WHIMSYGIRL, I came on here for a little help and guidance. Not to be told what a horrible selfish crappy person I am.
After your response, I felt like such an idiot. I cried for almost an hour, and for the first time ever in my life I felt this urge to hurt my self someway. Never in my life did I think I'd get so low that I'd even consider harming myself, and I guess we should thank the good chemicals in my brain that I didn't.
Your response is the reason why I'm too scared to talk to people, the reason why I hate asking for help, and the reason why I hate people SO much.
So yeah, THANK YOU.

I'm sorry if you took my message that way, I was just being truthful and my intention was not to hurt you.....but "horrible selfish crappy person" are your words, and for you to blame me for all of your feelings makes no sense. Whatever you are dealing with was not something I created. And for you to blame me for you wanting to harm yourself is beyond unfair, but if it makes you feel better to do so, no problem. You say you came to ps for a little help and guidance, and whether you like what I said or not, that is what I was giving you. You expressed that you have no one to talk to, but when people responded with kindness you did not seem to notice. I wish you all the best and not to worry....I'll stay far away from any of your threads from now on.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by RS123

You know what WHIMSYGIRL, I came on here for a little help and guidance. Not to be told what a horrible selfish crappy person I am.
After your response, I felt like such an idiot. I cried for almost an hour, and for the first time ever in my life I felt this urge to hurt my self someway. Never in my life did I think I'd get so low that I'd even consider harming myself, and I guess we should thank the good chemicals in my brain that I didn't.
Your response is the reason why I'm too scared to talk to people, the reason why I hate asking for help, and the reason why I hate people SO much.
So yeah, THANK YOU.

You wanted help and guidance here in the forums? Just a reminder....while you blame all your pain on me.....this is the first message I sent to you, after the first time you posted. Hello RS123.....Thank you for posting. I'm so sorry about all you're going through. I realize that, perhaps due to your shyness, speaking up to someone, including a doctor, about your situation may be difficult, but it is a necessary step to take. Even if you consulted with someone in the past, and she was not the kind person you needed, I hope you won't let this keep you away from doing the most you can do to help yourself. She was only one person, and just because she was not the right fit for you doesn't mean it has to be that way. There are many caring physicians out there. So about your questions. What will happen? As would happen any time you go to an appointment with a doctor, they would want to know what's troubling you....what brought you in to see them. What questions will they ask? You need to trust that they will ask questions that help them to understand your situation, and you'll drive yourself crazy if you try to predict EXACTLY what they will say ~ask. Perhaps they will order lab tests (some doctors use them), or talk about the possibility of antidepressants, or therapy, now or in the future. And as to how you'll say things....you did fine here, so why not print it out and bring it with you, if you feel nervous that you won't be able to express your feelings ~thoughts. And one last thought for you....like all of us, doctors are individuals, having their own personalities, and not every patient clicks with every provider, so if you are at first unlucky and do not hit it off with the one you go to....as happened before with you, I pray you do not give up on seeking help. Try to focus on taking things one step at a time, and not worry any more than necessary about what will happen tomorrow. I know it's hard to do, but as many of us know, in the long run it's important to try. No one deserves to feel so bad, and there are many options out there to improve things. Best of luck to you with everything, and I hope you'll keep posting whenever you feel like it.....

[RS123]

Originally Posted by whimsygirl

I'm sorry if you took my message that way, I was just being truthful and my intention was not to hurt you.....but "horrible selfish crappy person" are your words, and for you to blame me for all of your feelings makes no sense. Whatever you are dealing with was not something I created. And for you to blame me for you wanting to harm yourself is beyond unfair, but if it makes you feel better to do so, no problem. You say you came to ps for a little help and guidance, and whether you like what I said or not, that is what I was giving you. You expressed that you have no one to talk to, but when people responded with kindness you did not seem to notice. I wish you all the best and not to worry....I'll stay far away from any of your threads from now on.

Please don't try and use reverse psychology on me.
Maybe you should just think about how the other person will feel before you type something. I do think it's fair because you're the only one that said it. I was coping enough before that.
I am new to this and I didn't know we had to say thanks for every response we got.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by RS123

Please don't try and use reverse psychology on me.
Maybe you should just think about how the other person will feel before you type something. I do think it's fair because you're the only one that said it. I was coping enough before that.
I am new to this and I didn't know we had to say thanks for every response we got.

Wishing you all the best

[regretful]

I don't think any of us asked for this life. If we're here, we're likely living with or recovering from a depressive disorder. Depression, in a word, sucks.

I've read this thread; I have empathy for you because I was feeling nearly the same as you as recently as a month ago (minus the shyness - but in reflection, I suppose I am/was shy - just put on the happy face to hide the depression)...What has helped me is reading many of the words of encouragement and support here. I also, after much resistance, started some individual therapy with a psychologist, and I'm also taking an antidepressant.

Two months ago I considered various ways to shuffle off of this earth...now things are improving slightly...In addition to the above, I've been reading a book called "The Depression Cure" by Stephen Ilardi, PhD.

And one final note is something that I heard in a song that resonated with me which I thought I would share: if you can't change your world, change yourself; if you can't change yourself, change your world...

And second final is that depression is a heavy burden to bear. It took me several years to realize that what I was dealing with was depression. Reluctantly, I sought treatment a few years back. It helped; then I relapsed into the abyss. I resisted help again; but grace intervened and I am on the road to healing. I do hope that you find some peace of mind.

Oh, and there's no need to thank anyone for anything...all that is here is just information. It's like "stuff" being flung at you - take what sticks, and leave the rest behind.

Originally Posted by RS123

I need someone to talk to, but there's no one.
I just hate my life. I don't want this life anymore. No one would want my life.
It sucks.
Why do I have to be so shy?! Why do I have to be scared of everything?!
I don't want to be like this anymore. But there's nothing I can do.
My life is so dull. Just full of nothingness.
Why am I like this?! I didn't ask for this life!
I hate it. I hate everything.

[Idiot17]

Originally Posted by RS123
I need someone to talk to, but there's no one.
I just hate my life. I don't want this life anymore. No one would want my life.
It sucks.
Why do I have to be so shy?! Why do I have to be scared of everything?!
I don't want to be like this anymore. But there's nothing I can do.
My life is so dull. Just full of nothingness.
Why am I like this?! I didn't ask for this life!
I hate it. I hate everything.

hey, i feel like i could've written that. it's pretty much the way i feel.- it all sucks

[InfiniteSadness]

I can relate... Don't know what to do.