Doing Better.

I finally went to my mom and told her that I was getting help with a consuler at my school and we went to a docter and to she gave me a mood stabalizer to start off with. Ive been taking this for a week and Ive been doing pretty good. My old thoughts still haunt me, but I think I might finally get better this time. Today was kind of hard for me though, my teacher was going over depression in my Psych. class and I had to leave the room. I felt like I was being put on the spotlight and I felt like everyones eyes were on me, yet I knew no one really was. I felt like she was screaming her look this is what is wrong with her, I related to it and it was scary. We were going over a lot of types of disorders and everyone seemed to think some people are crazy and then we got to depression and I thought "thats me, Im on medication for that". My old depressed thoughts started to seep in my thought line and I had to get out. I wanted to cry. I am doing better but Ive just been so alone lately, its hard not to think about it.

Hey there Tori, nice to meet you and I'm glad to hear that you're getting some help! Just make sure to tell your doctor how you're feeling all the time so make sure the meds are stable for you - they can be tricky but also VERY helpful =)

Also sorry about class. It can be really hard when the subject of something you're dealing with esp depression comes up. I hate it actually. I think you'll figure out ways to keep cool when the subject comes up, over time. For me it took a while but I'm more and more comfortable with it.

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Thank you. I have actually have done a reasearch paper and a speech about my depression, just hearing it from someone else was harder unexpectidly.