a funk of unknown origin

I guess that makes it a FUO, instead of a UFO ......

I have been just crashingly depressed all day, and it feels like it's going to stick around for a while. I see my pdoc next week. Last time, he was ready to let me stretch it out to 2 months, and I said no, because every time we do that, I end up crashing, bad, before the 2 months is up and having to come in. Now I'm crashing before a MONTH is up!

I got 2 job rejections today, which I expected, so not a big deal except that I'm desperate for money and something to do. I have friends from home coming to visit me this weekend, which should make me happy. My bloodwork all turned up decently, which should make me happy. But I just feel like crap instead. And I feel bad for whining about it, because I feel like that's all I ever do here -- I apologize for being so unsupportive and only popping up when I need to ******. I wish I were a better friend.

I'd been feeling pretty good, actually, up to today, and then, for no apparent reason, BOOM -- life sucks.

Depression sucks, too.

Bah humbug.

Candy

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I hope you start feeling better soon.

safe hugs for you only if ok..

Kat

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In case you have not read any of my other post where I recommend this book for feelings that get stuck or in which we do not understand where they come from please read.... Feeling Buried Alive NEVER Die (by - Karol Truman)

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LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Ya know... even if you expect a rejection... of any kind, it is still bothersome even to the point of depression.

Yeah, you've got your health pretty much under control but you don't have what you really want. Maybe you're not even sure what it is you really want or need. Kinda like a fussy baby. You give it everything you can possibly think of but nothing makes it happy.

When that happens to me and I finally exhaust myself, *****ing, ranting, being frustrated, cussing, treating myself to something I think I want and nothing works. I go back to square one and allow myself a short pity party. I refuse to think about anything serious. Maybe I'll turn on some music as loud as I can so that I don't hear myself think. After a while, without thinking about it, something will cause me to get up and get started on something. Everything soon falls into place. When it doesn't, I just dismiss it as unimportant and keep trudging.

Ok... so you are allowed another couple of days of feeling miserable. On Monday, I think you know what you need to start doing... seriously!

Sorry you are feeling so depressed Candybear. I hope it doesn't last! Sending you plenty of good wishes.

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