Night time

I hate night time. It's when I go downhill emotionally. I'm starting to feel just...blah...depressed...lots of negativity.

I seem to lose my flair for being this happy-go-lucky, bubbly person that I seem to be in the daytime. My whole personality changes with the time.

At night I'm all serious and melancholic and all that. I just don't know why, either. I lose myself...or maybe I become my true self at night. I'm not sure which it is...because I'm both but more real at night.

I isolate even more at night, too. Maybe I'm just trying to keep myself safe...I don't know. I feel so much unsurety and dismay and I always seem to have my flashbacks at night, too. I often become a mess at night, rarely during the day. And wouldn't you know it I can't sleep much at night but am more comfortable sleeping during the day.

Sucks to be me, I guess.

Hey, Lexicon,

Just a thought, but are you into sports at all??? I love sports when I am feeling better....running helps me a lot. Perhaps you could join the Y or some houseleague/community sports team - this may make the evening pass easier....plus, you wouldn't be as isolated.

Hope this helps.

p.s.: Renting movies might help, too. (?)

Nights are hard for me too, but not because of the reasons you have though. I am fortunate that my sleeping has improved and to get to bed is a true escape for me.

I am sorry your nights are so hard on you!

Oh not into sports...I just stay online at night so I don't go crazy! It keeps me sane.