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Jan 05, 2004, 04:55 PM
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i have no idea how i feel. i have been like this for 3 days now. other than a few bouts or senseless rage (for around 5 mins each) it has been the same. i dont know what to say of do at this point. whatever this thing is is has in all manners destroyed my life.now thats not saying i want to kill myself cuz i dont. but i just dont know whats left here? like a ghost ship. and i dont think i care, its just why bother to get worked up about anything. i am here but not here, like a bad tv show you dont wanna watch but cant find the remote to change it. so what to do, or why do it? i guess i really want to know what now?
when my ship ran out of fuel i burned the things that made it pretty when i ran out of that i burned the things i loved when i ran out of that i burned willpower to keep me moving. its not a pretty ship but it still moves.
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Jan 05, 2004, 05:14 PM
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Have you thought of getting professional help? The best would be to find a good therapist, but short of that, you need to talk to an MD that understands depression. Why go on like this? Anything would be an improvement, right?
 This above all: To thine own self be true. -- Shakespeare
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Jan 05, 2004, 05:23 PM
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i have made plans to see a t friday.
when my ship ran out of fuel i burned the things that made it pretty when i ran out of that i burned the things i loved when i ran out of that i burned willpower to keep me moving. its not a pretty ship but it still moves.
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Jan 05, 2004, 05:23 PM
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Hi Lost.. if you're lost, I'm lost with ya, cuz we keep showing up at the same place! Rage is a powerful emotion, eh? I won't tell some of the 5minute outbursts results of mine in another life... sometimes the anger just can't be contained.
Please research anything I suggest before believing...
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Jan 05, 2004, 05:27 PM
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I so glad to hear that! That's something that takes a lot of courage. Things have to get better for you soon.
This above all: To thine own self be true. -- Shakespeare
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Jan 05, 2004, 08:47 PM
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I hear ya! I finally figured out, after many bouts with depression, that the first step is the hardest. So congrats on taking that first step and good luck to you!
Anna some of it's magic some of it's tragic but i had a good life all the way...... ~jimmy buffett
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Jan 05, 2004, 11:56 PM
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lost as always,
i hope you start feeling better, my t came today, and helped me a little. i hope you and your t will connect and they can help. I just wanted to say I feel pretty much as you described, seems like i keep finding the remote only to loose it, its been lost for a few months now.......i just want to find it again someday, and change the "channel of my life" I guess the t is one way of getting help looking for it... Take Care, KrazyKris Krazy Kris Spread the joy of a positive 2004 remember random acts of kindness  If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!
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Jan 12, 2004, 11:52 AM
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Hi lost_as_always and the rest of you brave people,
I have only wrote on here a few times because I keep thinking I have found the remote control then loosing it.Now I have lost it again. Christmas and new Year seemed to be going fine but deep down it was an escapism from what I knew was around the corner, which is what is going to make me happy when the festivities are over. I have just left my part time job and gone on the social security. Basically I have freaked out last week and wanted to go to mental hospital. I see a therapist who diagnosed me with personality disorder but it feels like I have been left with this. I have moveed back in with my parents after breaking up with my boyfriend and I know these outbursts are playing on them but I can't help it.I feel like my head will explode.I try to put on brave face, I have put the pills in the bin, I think if I get out and get a job I will not get lost in my lostness. Am I doing the right thing? Life is just a continuous struggle at the moment, unless I am going out and getting drunk, which seems to be humiliating as I am so sick cause my stomach is always knotted in anxiety. I just don't know what the answer is, I could stay in for days but I did this three years ago but when I go out I feel people are teasing me.Please send any suggestions. |
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Jan 17, 2004, 09:27 PM
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That ship needs a few repairs I think. See a therapist, go to a support group, see your doctor. Don't row alone.
-Ariel Whatever you can do, Or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic, in it. -Goethe
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Jan 18, 2004, 06:23 PM
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Lost as always,
Sometimes, what you described, can be your mind's reaction to something such as stress, or confusion, or dispair. Good luck at the therapist. I hope things get straightened out for you and make sense. Is there anything else in your life that you are unsure about or that really bothers you? |
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