sharing my thoughts

This is the first post in which I share some stuff about whats been in my head. It's kind of weird, I must say, knowing that many people are going to read this.

Anyway, I felt kinda dead today. I was really tired and felt like I had no energy. I've been thinking a lot about relationships in my life. I am really antisocial right now, and I really dont feel like meeting new people...well, except in here. I just feel like I need to be alone; put energy into feeling better.

I am an introvert, so being around people drains me. Also, being profoundly hearing impaired doesnt help...actually it makes it worse.

Another thing is, I have this friend who I met through my T. I havent talked to her in a while. Im guessing shes busy. She's hearing impaired like me, and she's acting as kind of a mentor for me. I'd like to email her, but for some reason I just dont feel like it. What would I say? I dont even know where to start. Plus, I'm not sure how much I can share with her.

You know how depression is...its very very dangerous for relationships. I think part of it is that I feel like I cannot trust her, or that she doesnt like me; which of course is destructive thinking, right? I dont know.

Dysthymia -- someone ought to write a poem or prose about how destructive it really is. I'm a writer, so I'll start one, and I'll be sure to share it with you guys.

Thanks for listening. Take care of yourselves.

Hi Dezdemona!
I had dysthmia (or however u spell it!) for 7 years, with three episodes of major depression on top...i'm in recovery atm and will be ending my therapy in the next month or so, but still staying on the meds til at least the end of this year. Yeah i have often thought about writing about it too. I've always wanted to write a sort-of memoir-come-fiction book based on my experiences...there is just so much i want to say though, it's in my head but i don't know how to put it!