[saatmsm]

m cnfused about myself, ma personality, my attitude , nature and have a much low cnfidence about ma self ... m still single 20 years old have only 2 or 3 girls as a best friend n dnt knw how to cnversate with any other girl n cant approach anyone coz of my mindset that i wont be able to do it or m nt dat cool. have less gk, not an attractive personality n still immature ... dont knw the truth wat is in me, cant understand my feeling, wat i feel n also m confused about my future as dont have much knowledge abt the worlds in and outs and someone can easily make fun of me .. i dnt knw why m writing all dese over yer coz i think dat i dnt wanna be a freaky or a sad geek n think dat writing over here is too kiddish or an lets say making me feel insane .. have very few friends which are tooo close to me bt i cant make them understand wat i feel or lets say it even makes me sad that m not open to them. help me out ... wat i felt is i wrote but still der are many things which i cant explain via this or dont knw wats d reasn... too much cnfused

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Saatmsm! It's OK to be confused about yourself, it's OK that you cannot explain everything, and posting here is definitely not kiddish.

Take your time. Write as much or as little as you want. Try not to worry about how you appear (we realize that can be difficult).

[Sam2]

You are in the right place. There is nothing wrong with not being married with three kids and a picket fence. Some people just choose not to be in a relationship. There is also nothing wrong with having women as friends.

I'm forty nine, divorced with no desire to get into another relationship. My friend is a woman, married, and there is no intimacy involved. Its a personal decision, and you will never be judged here.

Can you elaborate on exactly what it is that you are confused about? If it makes you uncomfortable, you don't have to, but if you are comfortable here, maybe we can help you work out some of your confusion.

Sam2

[montanan4ever]

Hi and welcome. I hope that reading here will help you see that you are not alone in your feelings. Many people will resonate with what you have written here. When I was your age I wrote of very similar feelings, only in my journal since it was well before the Internet....And I remember how bad it all hurt. I was a missionary volunteer in Germany at the time, and everything that had to do with a social life was basically agony 90% of the time. People confused the hell out of me. I was undiagnosed and untreated for my depression and other mental health issues, too.

Hard times, definitely.