i thought it was behind me

I thought my depression was behind me....I took myself off my meds about a year ago, set a goal in my life and I stopped feeling sad for the longest time and tonight I just got hit hard with sorrow just out of the blue and it sucks I even started crying and I don't cry

I'm sorry. Depression can hit anyone at any time. It seems like once you've been diagnosed with depression it never REALLY goes away. You may go into "remission" but it's always in the background waiting to attack at any moment.

Talk to your doctor, and get back on your meds. It's possible you have clinical depression. Ask him about that -- ask him if it's "major depressive disorder" also known as clinical depression. If that's it, you'll have to STAY on medication permanently.

But get back on the meds. You can't go on feeling like this. It's dangerous for your mental AND physical health. God bless and please take care. keep us posted. Hugs, Lee

thank you lee! but it just hit me last night...and only last night....its weird to say but ive done better without my meds...ive stopped self injury and I stopped the thoughts about killing myself all off my meds

perhaps you need a different type of meds; i have to take prozac and for years i was afraid of it because i heaerd all these horror stories about people who became suicidal/homicidal after taking them. i don't have those side effects--in fact its calmed me down if anything--and i am on the highest legal dose! but i know people who can't take it who are just as depressed as i am. but if this continues, i would also suggest at least talking to your doc. and if you have any concerns about meds, talk to him/her about that too.

i havnt seen the person who prescribes my meds in like a year...I see my therapist every Monday and I told her I took myself off them...that didn't concern her that much because she seen my progress

oh, okay-I see what you mean. Meds aren't for everyone, that's for sure.