[1970sbaby]

Hi......I am writing because I just do not know what to do. I just feel so down-in-the-dumps at the moment and do not feel like I have anything to really live for. I cry at the drop of a hat and feel all alone no matter how many people are around me. I go to sleep at night hoping that I will not wake up so I do not have to coontinue feeling this way. WHAT DO I DO?????

[adam_k]

Have you tried seeking help? You doctor could give you some medications that make you feel better. I found therapy to help with my depression when I didn't have anything to live for. I found meaning in my life by pushing myself through college and finding a job I wanted to do. I also found a reasons to live in friends and loved ones. Even when I feel really down I know I have to keep going for them. It helps me pull myself up. If you feel like you are going to hurt yourself you can go to the ER or call 911. I put myself in a hospital for a week during a tough time in my life and I was safe that way. I hope you find help. These feelings don't have to last forever. I know sometimes it feels like they will and this is life, but things can get better.

[Sam2]

Hi, glad you found us.

Although the causes of depression are varied, the feeling of dreading the morning light seems to be a common feeling. Maybe its because the oncoming of dark means that you can retreat without being poked at or having to try and get through daily dealings.

I agree with adam that seeking help is the first line of defense when it comes to depression. There are other conditions that can mimic depression, and the last thing you need is to be treated for the wrong thing. See a qualified psychiatrist that can both diagnose depression as well as perscribe medications. Nothing wrong with psychologists and they may be great for non-drug therapy, but you need a Dr. to perscribe.

If you aren't yet sure if you want to see someone, try keeping a detailed journal about how you feel, when, and what seems to make it worse or better. Often times you have at least part of the answer inside yourself. Even if you don't see a pattern, it will give a doctor something to go by when you are seen. Trying to look back and remember specific details is hard for anyone, but depression tends to slow the thinking process. Having a written journal will save you from having to second guess yourself.

Sam2

[lonelyemotionalgirl]

I know exactly how you feel. There is never any reason to get out of bed in the morning, and you are wondering why you were here. I think that way all of the time. The only thing I can tell myself is that someday, I will find something that will make me happy, or I will find my purpose for being here. Someday you will find something that makes you happy, and that you can take pride in. I am not sure how to wake up and not feel so lost and lonely, and I do not know how to not feel so emotional, but I do know that it always helps to talk to someone. I know how upsetting life can be, but it will not always be upsetting. Try to keep your head up, and I am always here to talk if you need anything.