[lonelyemotionalgirl]

I'm having a pretty rough day, and I could use some encouragement. I have been pretty upset for a while, and I often have anger outbursts. Today, I had thoughts of physically hurting someone, as well as myself. I don't want to be like this anymore.

So sorry you are having a rough day. We have all been there--I am not sure which is worse, total lethargy or anger and irritability. I often find it helps me to go to a quiet place and take slow deep breaths. Someone in another thread posted the suggestion to imagine or find a peaceful place in your mind. Hope this helps a bit today.

[Sam2]

Thoughts of hurting someone are pretty upsetting. In a way, they are more so than thinking of hurting yourself. Part of it depends on how far those thoughts are taking you.

In my twenties, when I used to drive for hours at a time at night, I used to follow people in their cars down lonely country roads, all the time thinking how easy it would be to kill them when they got out of thier car. They would never see it coming, and no one was around to see.

Obviously, I never did it, and I think it was just an outlet for the pain and anger I felt inside. Regardless of whether it is you or someone else you are thinking of hurting, if you think you are serious, please talk to a professional before something happens. Once you do something, its done and you can't take it back.

I hope you are feeling a bit better by the time you get this.

Sam2

[lonelyemotionalgirl]

Originally Posted by TortieCat12

So sorry you are having a rough day. We have all been there--I am not sure which is worse, total lethargy or anger and irritability. I often find it helps me to go to a quiet place and take slow deep breaths. Someone in another thread posted the suggestion to imagine or find a peaceful place in your mind. Hope this helps a bit today.

Thank you very much for your advice! I haven't done any breathing exercises in a while, or tried to get to a quiet place when I feel an anger outburst coming. I will definitely try the slow, deep breaths the next time I feel anger approaching!

[lonelyemotionalgirl]

Originally Posted by Sam2

Thoughts of hurting someone are pretty upsetting. In a way, they are more so than thinking of hurting yourself. Part of it depends on how far those thoughts are taking you.

In my twenties, when I used to drive for hours at a time at night, I used to follow people in their cars down lonely country roads, all the time thinking how easy it would be to kill them when they got out of thier car. They would never see it coming, and no one was around to see.

Obviously, I never did it, and I think it was just an outlet for the pain and anger I felt inside. Regardless of whether it is you or someone else you are thinking of hurting, if you think you are serious, please talk to a professional before something happens. Once you do something, its done and you can't take it back.

I hope you are feeling a bit better by the time you get this.

Sam2

Thank you very much for posting this! I am glad that I am not the only person who has thoughts like these. I am a very nice person, and I have never actually hurt someone physically before, but when I am extremely stressed out or having an anger outburst or am depressed, I think I have thoughts of hurting others because I want them to feel the pain that I feel, even if they are an innocent stranger. It is scary to think about this when I am calm, because I cannot figure out why I have such terrible thoughts. I always have thoughts of punching someone, even though I have never actually punched someone in my entire life. I often have dreams where I punch someone too, or at least trying to punch someone, but in my dreams, I am not strong enough and my punch is just a light tap. Then I wake up. I hate this. Thank you for sharing your situation with me, and thank you for your advice.