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Old Jul 25, 2006, 12:04 AM
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Which I am, sadly.

Sorry not been around, just hard. After I post this Christina going bye-bye again for a while, doesn't matter nobody misses me.

Almost finished physiotherapy for my wrists, no more motivation to not SI .... which I'm struggling with on a day-to-day basis now, amongst other things.

Too much stress everywhere and constant reminders of what I could be doing better, who I'm letting down and how selfish I've become since I slipped this far again.

Starting T again on Wednesday, not a moment too soon.

Brain working against me, d**n cognitive distortions are trying to smother me. Wanna sleep all day or cry or scream or something to get in control of myself.

Wanna know what I did today? I laughed. At nothing, for half an hour. It was not enjoyable, it was scary and I couldn't control it.... I could have been sick if it hadn't stopped when it did.

Everybody trying to help me out, and I appreciate it but I don't know how to help myself. How do you do it?

How do I keep myself centred and not triggered or miserable or depressed? How do I keep the thoughts at bay? How do I overcome this?

I don't think I can right now. Just too hard.

Will try to take care of me

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Old Jul 25, 2006, 12:34 AM
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I'm sori I don't have any answers for you cos honestly I am looking for them myself...

So I just wanted to say I'm sure plenty of people would miss you and please do take care of you

I hope starting T again helps and things get better

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Old Jul 25, 2006, 03:34 AM
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Hi Christina,
I'm sorry You are not feeling good,
I hope You feel better soon
((((((((((Christina))))))))))
I miss You when Your not around.
Crista
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Old Jul 25, 2006, 10:33 AM
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What help me when I am so low is to concentrate on others and forget about myself. Forget and forget that I even exist. All my concentration is on others. No focus at all on me. This is how I do it. But this is only me.

(((((((((((Canders)))))))))))

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Old Jul 25, 2006, 11:43 AM
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awwwwwwww precious (((((((((Canders))))))))))))

Hang in there! I totally understand how hard it is to keep centered. I struggle with it to but keep on working towards healing.
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Old Jul 25, 2006, 11:58 AM
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I miss you when you're not here Stressed out and heading for breakdown gentle thoughts to you sweetie ((((((((((((( Christina )))))))))))))
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Old Jul 25, 2006, 01:35 PM
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Christina .. I am thinking of you!

Wish I could make it better ....

And we DO miss you!!

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Old Jul 25, 2006, 01:50 PM
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(((((((Christina))))))) I'm so sorry you are not feeling well. I'm glad that you see the new therapist on Wednesday. I hope they will be able to help you. You are so special, Christina. I just want you to know that I care.

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You will get through this period of darkness.
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Old Jul 25, 2006, 03:13 PM
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You are loved and help is on it's way. Just a little bump in the road is all this is. One day you will look back and be very proud of yourself for what you will accomplish now.
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Old Jul 25, 2006, 11:21 PM
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Thank you sc_irisact Stressed out and heading for breakdown

I guess it was just a phase, I'm gonna try to come back now piece-by-piece.
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Old Jul 25, 2006, 11:22 PM
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Thank you Crista! Stressed out and heading for breakdown

I missed seeing your posts, I really did.
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Old Jul 25, 2006, 11:23 PM
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thanks time0,

I think I'm going to try that again. I've been doing that myself on-and-off again for a while, just got really hard.

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Old Jul 25, 2006, 11:24 PM
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Thanks esthersvirtue,

I'll try to work on the healing if you do too!

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Old Jul 25, 2006, 11:25 PM
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I missed you Fuzzy!! Stressed out and heading for breakdown I like bears, and you're a special one at that!

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Old Jul 25, 2006, 11:26 PM
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Okay, so I now know y'all missed me! Stressed out and heading for breakdown

Thanks so much Sabrina! Stressed out and heading for breakdown And a cute adorable doggie too! Awwww....
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Old Jul 25, 2006, 11:27 PM
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I wanna get through this a bit quicker than I am currently, but thank you dear Sujin Stressed out and heading for breakdown

I deny the special though, but I do care aboutcha too!
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Old Jul 25, 2006, 11:28 PM
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Thank you almostangela. Stressed out and heading for breakdown I hope so, and really thank you for your words of wisdom which do make a whole bunch of sense to me!
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Old Jul 26, 2006, 12:36 AM
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(((canders))) oh don't we all want to go faster! grrr

I've been gone from time to time for a few days...and even though it doesn't feel like I've been missed, I have been! You are a member here canders, and now that you are, when you aren't here, the site is different.

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Old Jul 26, 2006, 12:39 AM
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Old Jul 26, 2006, 12:49 AM
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(((((((((((( Canders ))))))))))) I hope you are feeling better .... You're words are so descriptive and I know exactly how you feel. Been there too. And always wish I wasn't. I think the best tip I can give you is to stay in touch with everyone that makes you feel better. Don't isolate yourself............Even if you have to FORCE yourself to stay involved with life then just do that. The bad feelings do go away and not as fast as we'd like them too. I hope the new T works out good. I just got a new one too. I'm sending good thoughts your way .......... Here they come >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
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Old Jul 26, 2006, 12:56 AM
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Yay ... got them!

Thanks Vaquerloca. Stressed out and heading for breakdown I wanna isolate myself but I suppose I should try harder to stay around people some.
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Old Jul 26, 2006, 03:01 AM
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Hi christina,
I love what You say about puppys.
They make You smile and can also save a life!
I hope You are better today.
Love Ya (miss ya also)
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Old Jul 26, 2006, 12:22 PM
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Hi everyone ...

finished my appointment with the new person (new T). Didn't go well, and I can't go back.

Christina was bad, I lied. Even took the Beck Depression Inventory and I lied.

Her suggestion was to try and eat more regularily, go to bed earlier and journal.

Tried that, that and that too.

I'm going to go crawl under a rock now, I don't get another oppurtunity for anyone new to help me (or the previous one) until September. Need to get through this alone until September.

I should stop whining, its all my fault. Christina is a good-for-nothing bad stupid liar.

I'm gonna try to go back in September if I still feel this lousy then, but it might just get worse in the month.

Oh well, all my fault.
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I hear you!

((((((((((( Christina )))))))))))))
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Old Jul 26, 2006, 06:45 PM
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Thank you Crista, I'm glad you like it ... I do love my animals (sometimes even more than other people!)

Thanks Nina *hugs* to you too.
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