[someguy83]

I am sick of being a loser and sick of my dead end job. I do not have anything to show for my life yet and seeing people I know get married and have kids makes me feel like a loser.

This is no way to live so I push woman away that I like .

I am giving up dating , friends , family , tv, Xbox ,drinking, partying, sports, working out , meeting new people, sleep , sex, going out , and everything I once enjoyed to get to my goals.

to be fair i real to not have too many close friends.

Seeing that I only get 3 to 4 hours of sleep a night I know it is not good but I do not care . The adderall helps but I had to cut back it stop working lol. I found a new drug that helps you stay awake but do not know if i should try it but i might.

Right now it is time to stop feeling sorry for myself and go from loser to winner at all cost.

The desire to feel like i am not a loser drives me. I don't know if that's the healthiest thing—to be motivated by a fear of hating yourself, but it helps.

I am driven to make it and so i can get a girlfriend. It is all or nothing this year. If I do it this year I never do it.

I am very hard on myself more then I need to be and I need to stop beating myself up. I am sure it does not help that I obsess on things I've done wrong. Even worse than mistakes I have made.

I am driven to make it and so i can get a girlfriend. It is all or nothing this year . If I do do it this year I never do it.

Anyway I decided to go back to college a 2nd time .My job is OK but it a dead end job and it is nothing I am passion at about doing forever. Retail sucks and I do not like it at all so it was time to do something new. Working night crew for the rest of my life is no fun and there no wear to go in retail.My job just does not pay well like $18.65 an hour will not feed a family even working full time.

I am taking two class now on top of it all.

People have pointed out i need to relax more and balance my life more and have some fun and there are right . So next quarter I am still going to take 2 classes but going to go the the gym and work out and play basketball or some thing.

homework before fun though got to get good grades or i never be anything.

Ok i can not recall the last time i was happy or felt full of life . I am lacking energy and motivation some times.

as of late i feel like crying at times during the day or when i go to sleep.

also feel this need all the time to punish my self when i fail to reach a goal like i do not deserve this and that if i do not do a good job.

I am 29 and feel like if i still working retail at 35 i might just give up on life.

I bought my self a can of dog food and have on my desk with a note how would you like this for dinner every night and then cry your self a sleep at night ? Get work done or you never be loved .

How do I start loving myself so a girl can love me back?

I want a wife and family and kids but if i do try my best to break my family trend of retail workers and welfare I do not deserve a to be happy.

I think i need to be therapy and got a number for one but to scared to call . I just need to man up and call so i can love my self. In turn have a gf/wife someday and kids.

How does one start loving them self?

Some would say it's realizing that we're all more alike than we are different. Seeing
yourself as a loser is one thing you'll want to remove from your thought process.

Why do you set a date for meeting a young lady? You may or may not be ready for that in the next year; it all depends on how you apply your learning steps to becoming the man you want to be.

Try reading a few meditation works, such as Keep It Simple or Forgiving and Moving On or Around The World With Emmett Fox. They're good places to start to get a
new view of who you really are.

One more thing: we are all created equal; we are not born equal, however. So it's
up to you to live your life by your deepest principles. Doing so will give you a good
feeling about yourself and help you to become just who you want to be.

Nothing beats the efforts of people to overcome alcoholism in the Hazeldon Foundation's work called Alcoholics Anonymous. It gives 12 steps to apply to learn
how to live a full and productive life. Apply those to yourself and you'll have all the
success you will need in life to be a happy husband with a nice wife and healthy children, in my view.

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Start saying OUT LOUD I LIKE MYSELF and say it often. In the morning or when ever you get up and every time you walk by your mirror, look your self right in your own eyes in the mirror and say out loud again. I AM A GOOD PERSON AND I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY. If you keep this up long enough your mind will start to believe it. Not a cure all but it does work.

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I just reread your post about the dog food. I am 59 and put all my eggs, work wise in one basket. The only marketable skill i have was being able to drive a truck all over the USA. My health as of 2009 will know longer allow me to work. You don't what to think of doing your self in I have been there twice since 2009. (Psch ward) I still take ADs but I also do what I said in the above post daily and have come to grip with it. I now found out at the end of last year that I have Hep C stage 4 cirrohosis. it sunk me. My new saying is, win lose or draw I won't go down without a fight. Hell you have you whole life ahead of you. Look into ITT tech, university of phenex, there is alot tech and trade schools out there all you have to do is look. I pissed away my chance to go back to school in my 20s 30s, or 40s. At almost 60 even if I did go back to school no one would hire me entrie level as I have very few work years left. it still gets me down now if I let it but I don't. can't cry over spilt milk. You can't put it back in the jug. Be Good To Your Self and God Bless. Garry J