[unhappycamper463]

I don't know why I don't give up. It's so exhausting.

[optimize990h]

unhappycamper463, what resources do you have right now?(do you see a therapist, see a mental health nurse or worker? If so, are you taking any medications to treat what ails you? Have you seen your primary doctor?)

Oh yes, you can come here to PC and vent if you wish to.

The PC members are helpful, but sometimes if you want information, advice, or someone to listen or read what you want to express that's possible here.

Many agree it can be exhausting,but life(I'm assuming)will be less stressful if you can open up. Then asking for help with these factors/details in your life that may need suggestions.

You have become a PC member who has posted 8X, you need a feedback on issues in your life that make you feel bleak,just vent some thoughts. Or discuss it with a PC member, like the chat room or through private messaging. Otherwise, just post it and you may get different range of feedback.

Hello, Unhappycamper463.

I don't think we give up because giving up never leads us to the answers we're searching for in life. The answers are out there (or inside us may be a better way of looking for them), and we need to keep working and living to find them.

Share your thoughts with friends here if you wish. A good conversation might be helpful and people do care about you and your well-being.

Take care of yourself.

[Sam2]

Originally Posted by unhappycamper463

I don't know why I don't give up. It's so exhausting.

You don't give up because there is still a part of you that wants to fight. Given your quote, you must have faith. Sometimes we have to wade through some pretty hard times for reasons that are currently beyond our understanding. Are you familiar with the serenity prayer?

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things i can
And the wisdom to know the difference

All we can do is try to support eachother, and when needed, seek professional advice. That doesn't offer much comfort, and its easy to feel alone, no matter how many people are in your life. Hang on though. You never know when things may change, or what experience you are getting from your trip through the darkness.

Sam2

[unhappycamper463]

I got a psychiatrist and am on SNRIs and some sleeping pills but nothing seems to be working. I've talked to some friends about stuff but I guess I come off too strong and they get freaked out. I guess I need to vent the thoughts but I need to do it in a way that's not with people that I care about. Otherwise they get pushed away. I feel like I need to protect them from myself. I guess I need to protect myself from myself too but I don;t know how to do that.

Actually Sam, I wouldn't say that I have faith. A couple years ago, I would've identified myself as an atheist and now I would say I'm more agnostic. I went to church for the first time on Sunday, hoping for some divine intervention. It didn't come but the people were really nice so I will go back.

I don't know how this stuff works or changes but it is overwhelming. It seems like the drugs don't work and I never sleep. Nothing changes and if this is what life is then I don't know why anyone goes through with it.

Thanks for listening though. I appreciate that there is a place where I can spew my thoughts without people getting scared off (I see given the other threads that a lot of us think the same way).

[tinyrabbit]

(((gives you a hug)))

[lonelyemotionalgirl]

I know it's hard. Hang in there. Look for the positives.

[Another24]

Hi camper,

I'm sorry that some of those close to you may not give the support you need. It can be very difficult to open up to others because there may be much fear in doing so. That was always my problem - not trusting others to warrant the support that I probably needed for decades but only found in recent years.

I hope you find at least one person who is willing to listen regardless of the severity of the conversation. Of course, you may discover dozens of such individuals, in these forums, but I believe you also need someone face-to-face who can show the support with a smile or even a tear.

Best of luck!