[wildflowerchild25]

My day is going terribly already and it's only noon. I can barely peel myself off the couch. I feel like I am going to break down in tears any second. I did manage to make breakfast with my husband so that's good I guess. But we have to visit family tonight and that seems like such a horrible monumental task....how can I pretend I'm fine for that long?!

I wish winter were over because it's so cold I can't go outside. I hate cold.

What do you do when it seems like the very air is crushing you? I need ideas to feel better. I'm going to force myself up and I guess that's a start.

At least my husband is understanding today and not angry with my inert nature. I love him.

[shortandcute]

Depression can be very hard. Sometimes it's all I can do just to wash half the dishes.

Wildflowerchild, welcome. Your thread causes me to wonder if someone in your husband's family can be a trigger for you.(No need to answer here, but something you might think about.) Is there one member who makes it unpleasant for you or who is really able to push your buttons? That is not unusual at all, in my view.

While you're there tonight, make it a point to listen very carefully to what others say or think and see if you can get insight into what it might be that triggers you---if it does.

Also, I noticed that the cold, somewhat dark winter days are bothersome for you. Have you ever been tested to find out if you have a depression related to sunlight deficiency? Many people do have that--called SAD, as you know, and a special ultra-violet light might help.

The other things that might be possible are that you have an allergy of some sort or you may have unconscious depression. The best thing to do to help is to go in to see a psychiatrist and ask for help. It might be that you have just a little chemistry imbalance in the brain that needs adjusting with meds.

Take care; I enjoyed your post and hope you feel better soon.

[clash]

hell I've been in bed for new since tus

but that's it

[Leed]

Hi Wildflower ~ Genetic gave you some good ideas. I do have S.A.D. plus I've been thru therapy and I've also been on an antidepressant for probably 40 yrs now. I have clinical depression, where like genetic said, the chemicals in my brain are all messed up and have to be replaced by the antidepressants. It does make me feel MUCH better! I don't feel like escaping into my room anymore, or staying in bed, etc. The meds are a lifesaver.

While therapy may be enough for you, if you've been depressed a very long time you may require them. Let your therapy decide that - but I do hope you will try therapy first.

I wish you the very best. Please let us know how you do. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee

[AmieW]

I had a severe depression once where I got up, got my son off to school, laid on the couch all day until right before he got home, got up to shower and dress, did what I had to do with him, then got back on the couch until we went to bed. It lasted six months. Suddenly, one day, it just went away.

Anyway, I do know how you feel. Hopefully, it won't last long.

[wildflowerchild25]

Oh yes I can't stand my mother in law sometimes lol. She was rude and demanding the second we got to her house! Anyway I do know the winter is the worst for me. I have a happy light and I use it but it doesn't always help.

As for getting help I have an appointment on wednesday for a new therapist and a psych eval at the end of april. I saw a therapist three weeks ago but i didn't like him - he wanted to do thought field therapy which is related to accupressure and i am not down for people touching me. So i have been trying to hold on till these appointments.

I've had many forms of treatment in the past but i haven't been in treatment since 2007. Unfortunately I don't think I can do this anymore on my own so I'm going back and hopong for the best.

[Hopefloat]

I'm in a funk too lately. I'm on day two of waiting until 5pm to shower because I just can't be bothered..

I find that when I stand by a window or door, no matter what my mood, it lifts at LEAST a little bit with the light/brightness (and I live in the upper Midwest and this helps even in the dead of winter for me).

Also, getting a dose of anything that brings a smile to my face (a funny episode of my favorite TV show on DVD), a hug from my kids, a pet on my dog's head that makes her tail wag, a wave from my goofball neighbor)....anything....these little things help me along. When I'm depressed and I look at "the big picture," tackling that seems impossible, but if I take in the little things and appreciate them, I get some hope back. Good luck to you! -Hope

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Oh yes I can't stand my mother in law sometimes lol. She was rude and demanding the second we got to her house! Anyway I do know the winter is the worst for me. I have a happy light and I use it but it doesn't always help.

As for getting help I have an appointment on wednesday for a new therapist and a psych eval at the end of april. I saw a therapist three weeks ago but i didn't like him - he wanted to do thought field therapy which is related to accupressure and i am not down for people touching me. So i have been trying to hold on till these appointments.

I've had many forms of treatment in the past but i haven't been in treatment since 2007. Unfortunately I don't think I can do this anymore on my own so I'm going back and hopong for the best.

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Oh, Smart lady, Wildflower. Things will improve sharply for you
once you're on the right med to stabilize the chemistry.

Lots of good wishes to you and you're doing the right thing, for certain.

[RJ78]

I agree with genetic...good luck at your appt on Wednesday.

RJ