One more month ...

One more month and it'll be over.

He's leaving me to cope by my lonesome, but its not his fault. We have seperate lives, and he's an awesome friend...

I just wish I didn't feel like he was leaving permanently. A year isn't all that bad ... How am I supposed to believe that? He knows everything about me, more than any other person ...

In one more month I won't have him there for me, and that bites. He doesn't even know how hard it is for me ... I can't tell him, I don't want to guilt him.

In one month Christina is all alone IRL, because one too many people have left me over the past few months and nobody knows how hard it is for me to just live day-to-day.

I don't wanna be alone. I don't want him to leave and I didn't want the rest of them to leave and I just don't wanna be so dependent but I can't help it ... I really can't. I've tried to distance myself so it won't kill me every time someone goes, but every single time its like a little part of me dies.

My best friend left me four years ago. First depressive episode. Bad bad bad, and I'm betting you can guess what wound up happening... but I got out of it. It kills me to think about him. I don't wanna go down that path again ... but this one, he's special. He's a godsend, and without him I wouldn't have made so much "progress" and he's always tried to help and he has.

All I do is hurt. I am not worthy of being close to anyone, because I wind up a self-centred idiot when they leave.

Canders!!!!

I wont leave you alone!!! i wont walk out on you!!!

I've don that enough by not coming on here enough

I know what it feels like to be left alone

i spent four nights on the street alone by myself.

i know how it feels


Milly

(((milly)))

Thank you...

I'm sorry about your living on the street but I'm glad someone understands how I feel right now.

Not your fault for not coming on here ... I missed you though and am glad you're back

ahh canders will all be here for you. I understand whats its like to have somebody walk out

((((((((Canders)))))))))))

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(((time0 and Fuzzy)))

Thank you.

Hi Canders,

I know that I have not been a member of this site for very long, but I honestly know how you feel. Everyone that I have ever loved has left me (except for my current husband, and I'm wondering if/when he will leave. I'll be your friend, and you can PM me anytime you need something, and I'll do my best to help you. You don't have to go it alone!

Take Care,
Angel

P.S.

thanks (((sammi)))

At least I know I'm not alone

Thanks (((Angel)))

I don't think your husband will leave you, you seem really nice

Thanks *hugs*

(((((Canders))))))) It's all going to be alright. You'll be fine.