[xrainstormx]

I don't understand how parents could personally try to make there kids mad. My parents do it all the time to me. It makes me feel so bad. I hurts me so much. I don't understand what I did to them. Oh, I remember I was born. If they wanted to treat me like this why did they even have me. The worst thing is there is nothing I can do about it. I can't leave yet I don't have the money. I do plan to move out as soon as I can support myself but that isn't soon enough. It is not just them though it is everything. I feel like my world is closing in on me and there is no way out. I mean I have a boyfried who I love and he knows about all of this. He is great and helpful. He is my only support though and I need more. He shouldn't be the only thing that makes me happy. Don't get me wrong I love him but other things should make me happy and they don't. I feel like I am going numb. Someone help me! I know everyone will say go to a doctor. I do. I don't see her a lot because of my parents. I don't know what I need anymore. I don't know what to do. I don't even feel like crying. It seems to be a waste and doesn't solve anything. Whatever life sucks.

[sammi]

hey just hang in there rain. I know its hard i'm kind of in the same situation. I can't leave either. I know its hard but when things get hard with my parents i just try getting out. In your case try hanging out with your boyfriend i mean you know anything just to get away from them for a while. Breathing room i guess, everybody needs it

[Frozen_Heart]

xrainstormx- sorry to hear you feel your parents are trying to mad. As a mother of 4, I'm not always popular in my house because I seem to be the one who keeps my oldest from doing all the things he likes and wants to do but I do worry for him and hope he's making all the right friends. It's all the darned hindsight, I can know see who all the wrong friends were from my younger years.

Having said that, I just hope that my son can see a difference that the reason I prohibit him is because I love him and worry about him. I don't want to see him hurt. Now granted, I don't know you situation and mine could be off completely.

I'm sorry you're feeling alone and don't feel you can lean on your parents. I'll keep you in my thoughts and also, hearing you speak, I'll re-evaluate how I interact with my own son (12 years) to be sure I'm not making him feel isolated.

((((HUGS))))))

[xrainstormx]

I try that as much as I can.

[xrainstormx]

I realize that parents want the best for there children. It is not lke that with mine though. They personally acttack a lot. They are crazy.

[Frozen_Heart]

Well, there is no excuse for personal attacks and name calling, that is a form of mental abuse. I was afraid to post at first because I didn't want to seem like I was being insensitive and I hope you didn't take it that way. I understand what it is like to be called names and constantly told you will never amount to anything and that you are basically stupid. It haunts me today and sometimes I can tell some of my actions and choices are made with my father in mind. For some reason, I'm still trying to please him or feel valued in his eyes, though I logically know it will never happen.

((((HUGS))))) Hang in there; this too shall pass! It just sucks!!!

[damajdancer]

((((((((( xrainstormx ))))))))))))
I know exactly what you are going through!
My parents always told me that the only reason I was born was because the condom ripped. My mom constantly yells at me for no reason about the stupidest things. My dad blames everything that happened to me on me. So I know where you are coming from. Ive been in some really bad spots in my life, and it was my boyfriend who got me out. So i hope that your boyfriend can help you too. Just do what you think is right and be safe! We are here for you! Hang in there!
-Megan-

[zombiette]

((((rainstorm))))....my parents always made me the scapegoat for their problems as i was growing up. their manner could be "oh i'm so proud of u" one minute and "ur so stupid/horrible/bad, ur a spoilt brat born with a silver spoon in ur mouth,etc"...it was so confusing so i really feel for u and am sorry ur having such a hard time with them atm

[xrainstormx]

So things are still in your mind even though you moverd out?

[xrainstormx]

Thank you. I owe a lot to my boyfriend. He is really great to me.

[xrainstormx]

What did you do to staighten out your mind? My is a mess and I don't think my parents are right but then again sometimes they make me fell like they are right. What do you do?