[iliketherain]

Hey guys.

I am sorry for everything you all are going through. I am sorry for everything I am going through.

I wish life wasn't so sad and lonely and scary.

I wish I didn't feel so helpless.

I wish society didn't stress me out so much.

I love all of you and feel for each and everyone out there that has to experience sadness, loss, and loneliness.

I'm sorry you guys.

[iliketherain]

My reasons for feeling this sad are so unnecessary, but I hate being so naive about reality.
Please offer any support you can provide.

I am feeling so alone, in general, but particularly tonight.
I am constantly questioning myself and my life, and I'm not sure if it's because of some subconscious need to torture myself, but I have trouble finding anything positive around me.

I am an insecure, self-loathing individual, and the only way I am able to feel anything but sadness is through the affirmation I receive from others. It's quite sick actually. Anytime this affirmation is removed, I will do anything to re-obtain it.

I have been dependent on people for so long - particularly my ex-boyfriend (who is sadly semi-still my current boyfriend - sometimes...). After moving so far away from him and my friends and everyone I know, I feel like my life is falling apart. I cannot, however, financially support myself in the former place I resided in until I save some money.

I really don't know what to do anymore. I hate to sound trite complaining about issues that are seemingly easy to solve, but my situation is really depressing me constantly.

I have sat around crying for at least the past 6 hours. I can't escape my sadness.

Thanks for any help you can provide. I hope everyone else is having a better night than me. : /

I wish I could give you some good advice but really tonight i am just responding to your thread so you don't feel too abandoned.

Have things improved since yesterday?

[Leed]

Bless your heart -- why do you hate yourself so?? What have YOU done that is so awful? It seems to me that circumstances are the only thing that is wrong -- and that cannot be blamed on you!!! The economy is horrible -- and that's not your fault. So why do you hate yourself? I don't understand!

You haven't done anything wrong that I can see. Money seems to be a factor -- but that's a problem for almost everyone. Why do YOU hate yourself? It's a problem for ALL of us and we don't hate ourselves. Well, not all of us anyway -- some of us do. I don't hate myself, and money is a BIG issue. There's just nothing I can do about it. I'm disabled, so that's that!

I wish you felt better about yourself. Please talk to us, ok? Maybe we can help.

[Marla500]

I am also just posting to let you know you are not alone, I am hearing myself say "I hate myself!" so much lately too. I think I am frustrated with myself because I feel stuck and it takes a lot of effort to do the smallest things. but when I think about what I have managed to do day by day it doesn't seem so bad. we do the best we can.

ps Illegal, I really like your Einstein quote!!

[ndgirl]

I just want you to know that you are not alone. I hear myself saying many of the things you have mentioned. My motto for quite awhile has been life sucks then you die.

[InfiniteSadness]

Amen to the original post... ugh.

[InfiniteSadness]

We dont deserve all this pain but somehow we get it.

[Emotionally Dead]

*** POSSIBLE TRIGGER? ***
Thanks so much for this post. I know it was hard for you and that you are having an extremely difficult time. It is nice to know that someone feels the same exact way as I do...

I have been going through a whole lot lately. From losing the love of my life, to having some physical things happen. I feel like I am falling apart emotionally and physically.

I also feel like my time here is limited. Ever since I was a child, I thought I would die young. I didn't even think I would get to my 20's. I did, but I still have that feeling that I won't live long. I am actually okay with that. I kind of embrace not feeling all this pain and grief anymore. I think that there is something left for me to do. I don't know what it is. I kind of feel like I will die saving someone else. I would be happy with that, there are people that deserve to live more than I do. People that are stronger than me who embrace life and not spit at it. I think that would be a good way to go out, and I just don't have joy anymore.

So I know how you feel and I feel the same way. I know this post probably didn't help, but hopefully it at least showed that there are others who feel as you do and that you aren't alone. Also, that you helped a little bit by showing me that I am not alone in this feeling either. Take care.

[iliketherain]

Thanks to all of you who replied.

You are all in my thoughts! : )

[beautifulfreak]

Ditto to all of the above.