[thunderbear]

Im not a very depressed person. Im more neurotic than anythin. But here these last couple of years, Im getting these episodes of depression & they are beginning to become more frequent and more intense. They are lasting longer, also. I dont see anything good about my life or my future. I stay in such anxiety & emotional & physical pain. It really brings me down. My sisters both have these great jobs. They own their own houses. And they both suffer from anxiety disorders. But they are outgoing & have friends. I can barely leave my house for agoraphobia & severe pain.

I dont know how to live with this. For years it has held me back. I just cant seem to get to the other side of this. I feel sad all the time. I dont have an appetite or any desire to do anything. At all. Ive been invited to two parties & a wedding. Used to, I would be so excited to do that, but I really dont care. The only feelings I seem to feel these days are apathy, sadness & anger. I dont know what to do. I feel like Im falling apart. Mabye I am.

Hi Thunderbear: Well, I seem to be all about depression nowadays, & anxiety. I also have agoraphobia. In years past I would have panic attacks & I'd get to the point where I seemed to be floating outside my body. No matter... I just kept plowing along & today, while I still have them, they're not as bad as they used to be.

Depression, on the other hand, pretty much has me on the ropes. It's to the point where I've just given myself over to medications, no questions asked. I see that you've been a PC member since 2008. So I'm pretty sure I can't tell you anything you don't already know. You've probably even told it to other PC'ers dozens of times. Of course, as we all know, it's one thing to advise someone else as to what they need to do. It's something else to put it into practice yourself!

There's one thing I would say, I guess. It is that, based on my personal experience, I'd say that once depression takes hold it's unlikely to go away by itself. It just drags you down further & further. So you must do something to interrupt the cycle: take meds, get therapy... or more therapy, perhaps find one thing you really love to do & try to do it at least once a week. Then build up from there. Yada, yada, yada... (you've heard it all before...) My very best wishes to you!

[thunderbear]

Thank you BedoBones.
Im the way with depression as you are with panic attacks & vice versa. Its the agoraphobia, panic attacks & the million phobias that keeps me on the ropes. Im not very good with depression. I guess its cause its not an everyday thing. Im gonna read more on here & take your advice about finding something I love to do. Again, thank you

[bharani1008]

I can't tell from your self description whether you are getting medical help. If not please do.
I can't deal with the depression and panic and anxiety without medication. Period. I may never get off of the meds and I say thank heavens for them. At least I can make choices and function with them. Why suffer if something can help you?
I'm saying these things as if you aren't getting help. If you are then I beg your pardon.
Regardless of all that I hope you find relief really soon. We all are suffering the same thing and it's really hard.

[Puffyprue]

I think we all are not good with depression , Depression has been my everyday life yet iam still not good at it , i hate it !

I dont have anything worth to say but i sympathized with your condition, hope you could find a way to sort it out

[happy 2 b here]

Originally Posted by Bedobones

Hi Thunderbear: Well, I seem to be all about depression nowadays, & anxiety. I also have agoraphobia. In years past I would have panic attacks & I'd get to the point where I seemed to be floating outside my body. No matter... I just kept plowing along & today, while I still have them, they're not as bad as they used to be.

Depression, on the other hand, pretty much has me on the ropes. It's to the point where I've just given myself over to medications, no questions asked. I see that you've been a PC member since 2008. So I'm pretty sure I can't tell you anything you don't already know. You've probably even told it to other PC'ers dozens of times. Of course, as we all know, it's one thing to advise someone else as to what they need to do. It's something else to put it into practice yourself!

There's one thing I would say, I guess. It is that, based on my personal experience, I'd say that once depression takes hold it's unlikely to go away by itself. It just drags you down further & further. So you must do something to interrupt the cycle: take meds, get therapy... or more therapy, perhaps find one thing you really love to do & try to do it at least once a week. Then build up from there. Yada, yada, yada... (you've heard it all before...) My very best wishes to you!

Hi

You have phrased this so well -- the part about giving yourself over to medication -- I have had to do the same thing. Although I have been on effexor and alprazalam for over 7 years, I recently needed the dosage of effexor doubled. I waited longer than I should have -- still hard to ask for help after all these years