[herethennow]

If you have been following my posts on the check in.. yeah.

Sometimes when I check myself and ask myself.. "k herethennow, how do you feel today?" Lately its been in the direction of "i dont know!!!" I know i dont feel bad.. but i dont feel too good either. I still do harbour thoughts of sui and si; its not like the depression has lifted. But i still dont think that its thats bad.. so.. i don't know. Has anyone else felt this?

I think i like to classify this as the lull before the storm? A respite i guess... but its just frustrating to not be able to identify your emotions. It leaves no room for like.. something workable,

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I kind of feel the same way - - not horrible, but not too good either. Usually, when someone asks me how I'm doing, I honestly answer, "Okay." If this is the lull before the storm, I hope it's a storm of depression being completely gone, a "storm" of normalcy/baseline.

The not knowing how you feel can be frustrating. Kind of a blah feeling you can't put your finger on, but you know it's somewhere in the realm of depression (at least that's how it is for me)

[mulan]

I always felt that. But it's not only in what respect to what I feel. Guess is not the same thing. I think that feeling stupid just should appear on that list. It is not feeling bad or good, it's not liking yourself.

It's a sort of numbness. Personally I think it's a result of emotions gone crazy for a while that they kind of short circuit into a confused mess and you're kind of offline and floating--still thinking but it feels kind of... empty? To me it's a lot like having ear muffs on.

Yeah, I think for me it's just that I'm too used to feeling this way that sometimes I don't even realize I feel it? Does that sound right? Sometimes it's also worse than other times, and sometimes I don't know how I'm feeling at all.

[herethennow]

Thanks for the replies, guys!

I think empty sounds right.. but does not hit it quite right... man this is frustrating.