[jean17]

That's me. I feel like such a loser. I feel like I'm just not capable of handling life. Like I'm stupid or defective somehow. I just feel like giving up trying. I saw my psych doc ySd and he increased some of my meds. I just feel like even with tons of psychotherapy and meds I'm just not ever going to be "normal". I try so hard and it just makes me want to cry because I just can't do it. I feel so alone. I can talk to my psychologist and psychiatrist, but not anyone close to me. They just wouldn't understand and I just can't reveal myself to anyone. I just feel so bad. I try so hard and I just keep getting worse.

[AngelWolf3]

I understand your pain. I wish i had some healing words for you.

[Tamster]

jen i started therapy with a very capable doctor who specialized in my problems when I was 22. after what you would call a ton of therapy I started to improve, quit alot of the bad behavior, but then i quit one day and never went back to myT, what a mistake. Some of us just need some help now and again. Its ok to not be normal and be OK too. Jen go to therapy take breaks when you need, it works out.

[avlady]

I also say take a break from the negative thoughts, you sound like me, i feel like i can't handle anything, but somehow, i get things done. therapy helps and my meds too. i'm not anywhere near perfect, but i can do a little at a time.

[Fuzzybear]

[TimeEntrance]

Originally Posted by jean17

That's me. I feel like such a loser. I feel like I'm just not capable of handling life. Like I'm stupid or defective somehow. I just feel like giving up trying. I saw my psych doc ySd and he increased some of my meds. I just feel like even with tons of psychotherapy and meds I'm just not ever going to be "normal". I try so hard and it just makes me want to cry because I just can't do it. I feel so alone. I can talk to my psychologist and psychiatrist, but not anyone close to me. They just wouldn't understand and I just can't reveal myself to anyone. I just feel so bad. I try so hard and I just keep getting worse.

You're not a loser, Jean. You are one more bright, shinning light on this earth. You are in the image of the Holy and you have creative abilities.

Keep fighting "life" beating you down.

Life can be awfully hard.

[Leed]

Oh Jean, you are NOT a loser, and you're certainly NOT defective! You were made in the image of God. You are a child of God. How can you be defective?

Just because we have an illness doesn't make us defective. And it doesn't make us "different" either. If you ask me, I'd say the majority of people on earth suffer from depression at some time in their lives -- it's just that some of us are stuck with it for longer -- and like me, I've had it for a lifetime. LOL

Acceptance is the word. We have to learn how to accept this disease. Yes, it stinks that we have it -- but if we accept the fact that there are times when we feel like we're living in a deep hole -- but that there IS a way out of that hole -- we'll be okay.

Therapy did help me but it was NOT the cure-all. I still had to have medication on top of therapy and even the psychologist AND psychiatrist said so. Some of the psych meds the doctors hand out are a bit much when all we need are antidepressants!

Jean, you're not alone my friend. We all understand what you're going thru and we certainly sympathize. Please know that there IS light at the end of the tunnel - and you WILL see that light. But please don't berate yourself, as that isn't doing you any good at all. Did you know that before you can REALLY care for anyone else, you MUST love yourself first?? It is true!!! You have to learn to love YOU!!! So how about doing this every morning --- go to your mirror, and look at yourself and say "I love you" and keep saying that until you BELIEVE IT. At some point you will -- it may take months, but you will. You are a good, caring, loving person who deserves good things in her life! Just learn to love you. Hugs, Lee

Originally Posted by jean17

That's me. I feel like such a loser. I feel like I'm just not capable of handling life. Like I'm stupid or defective somehow. I just feel like giving up trying. I saw my psych doc ySd and he increased some of my meds. I just feel like even with tons of psychotherapy and meds I'm just not ever going to be "normal". I try so hard and it just makes me want to cry because I just can't do it. I feel so alone. I can talk to my psychologist and psychiatrist, but not anyone close to me. They just wouldn't understand and I just can't reveal myself to anyone. I just feel so bad. I try so hard and I just keep getting worse.

Hey, listen to me, YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY NOT A LOSER. You are a person who's going through some tough times at this point in your life, and putting yourself down isn't going to help you. I know exactly how you feel, I feel this way all the time, and you should look on the bright side, you've got a therapist to help you. I don't. Your therapist is there so you can tell them all your problems. It's their job to give you advice and help you through these bad feelings. And if you tell yourself you're a loser, that will only make things worse. If you need hugs or someone to talk to, I'm here all the time. Just post a visitor message on my profile, or PM me. You deserve all the hugs and happiness in the world.

Sincerely, Italianfire