[xrainstormx]

I want to write something that really expresses how I feel. I don't konw how to do that. How does everyone else?? I know that I feel really alone. I have a wonderful boyfriend who is there for me but for some reason I just feel alone. I am in this black hole and I am there ALONE. I don't like it at all. I had a great day I went out with my boyfriend and it was really fun. Why am I not happy though? What is wrong with me? Why can't I just be happy? Maybe that is asking to much. I don't know. How do I express everything that is bothering me when I don't know how to put it into words, it is just there. What should I do?

[Rhapsody]

Just start writing your rough draft and let it come as it will.... maybe in pieces or even days apart.

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

Maybe you could get a journal. Start with one sentence at a time.

I feel sad. Then you can list reasons why.

"Because I feel alone. No one understands. My heart aches."

It doesn't have to make sense to anyone but you.

Maybe as you continue to write it will help you see yourself in a different light.

Maybe then you can weave the words together into something like a poem.

Writing can help heal.

[Christina86]

xrainstormx,

You started off good. Sometimes its just questions, and thats enough. Basically I just put pen to paper and just write - not stopping and not editting, doesn't even have to make any sense as to what its about - can switch topics over and over again too.

Sometimes when I'm about to write a post here - I wind up stopping and deleting it before it even gets posted because it doesn't seem important - more often than not the stuff I write here isn't what I was originally going to write about - it just happens.

*hugs* You'll get it eventually - just keep plugging away. You might also want to consider poetry or art or some other artistic medium? Sometimes writing is more difficult than something else.

[SerenitysWave]

<font color="purple"> I agree with what everyone else posted... a journal, poetry, questions.... all starts with that one sentence... will be surprised how much will come out once you get that first line started.... and dont worry about making sense... doesnt have too... its about releasing what you feel on the inside and I know for me it often doesnt make any sense ...

painting or drawing even doodles can be a good release as well.... the feelings come out in the colors you choose and the shapes and designs you choose....

for me poetry, journaling, random writings, are how I express my inner self... each one starts with just a random sentence of how I am feeling or what thought or image is roaming in my head.....

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[Bethsway]

Just write what is in your heart...let it flow...that is what I am doing now...I recently started to write poetry...It is proabaly not good poetry and probably doesn't mean anything to anyone else...but to me...it is deep from within my soul...and means everything to me...it is my life...bits and pieces in each poem...you will find your way...just keep jotting down whatever you are feeling...

[xrainstormx]

I used to write everyday in a journal. Now it just seems pointless because it didn't seem to help. I wirte like twice a month now.

[xrainstormx]

I know what you mean.

[xrainstormx]

This is going to sound so stupid but I have written as I said in theother reply and it doesn't seem to help anymore. If you write things down though it makes things true. I don't want to except certain things. I know I won't be able to deal with certain things. I don't want to except my reality because I know it is bad.

[sammi]

yeah rain i know what you mean. Writing use to be my favorite thing in the world. I even use to write stories, but i even have trouble with that anymore.

Its like you see yourself more clearly when you write. A door opens up insaide of you and everything just comes flooding out. Don't be afraid though rain, sometimes actually putting it all down helps.

[xrainstormx]

It could help or either hurt? I don't want it to hurt.

[dalila]

[b]<font color="green">I find the right words help me to work through the hurt. Sometimes others' words say what I need to say, so I am adding a poem I wrote. Perhaps it will give you the inspiration to write for yourself.

Hiding

I am invisible
Walking though crowds.
Talking to people
I wear the mask.

No one really knows me.
No one sees the pain
The fear the isolation.
My scars are hidden.

I am always alone
No matter where I go.
Walls seal me in
And seal them out.

Hidden thoroughly behind
A careful facade.
I look out at them
But they cannot see me.
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[Bethsway]

great poem and it is me exactly...thank you!!

[xrainstormx]

Thank you.