[pennyw]

I've never posted to any group, so bear with me. I've sought out help here because even with insurance, I don't have the money to go to a professional. I've felt like I've dealt with depression off and on for the past 20 years. But each time, it gets worse. I feel like I don't have a good support system. Like there is no one to talk to. I really have no family to speak of and very few friends. My issues stem mostly from relationships. I don't have very good luck and have never had someone that I felt was a good match. That I could see being with for any length of time. I finally met a guy, who unfortunately was going through a divorce, so although I knew it was bad timing on his part, I could see being with him for the rest of my life. We are so perfect for each other, same interests, same way of looking and living life. We had 3 glorious months. I felt so comfortable with him. Then 2 weeks ago he abruptly stopped talking to me, a week later, I finally got a response from him that he wasn't ready for a serious relationship, which is what I had been afraid of. Now, I feel no interest in doing anything. I'm sad all the time, can't deal with being around other people. I eat about half what I used to. Sleep on average 3 hours a night. It's never been this bad and I don't know what to do.

[healingme4me]

Sorry to read that your relationship ended so quickly. Bummer, that he wasn't honest with himself, and you, sooner, about the idea of serious relationships.

There is a Relationship Thread on this Board, that can also be of use, to help you. Relationships & Communication - Forums at Psych Central

[pennyw]

I can't truly say he wasn't honest with me, he just wasn't clear. He said he was "skittish" about relationships, understandably so going through divorce and all, but his actions spoke otherwise, usually spending weekend evenings/nights together, and sometimes an evening during the week. Went out and had fun. Phone call or two most nights. Now nothing.

[Bluegerbera1]

Originally Posted by pennyw

I can't truly say he wasn't honest with me, he just wasn't clear. He said he was "skittish" about relationships, understandably so going through divorce and all, but his actions spoke otherwise, usually spending weekend evenings/nights together, and sometimes an evening during the week. Went out and had fun. Phone call or two most nights. Now nothing.

Hi there. So sorry for what you are going through. I too am going through depression which is long running and now having a major episode. My relationships have caused a lot of pain but the best bit of advice I have had is that I cannot be happy in a relationship if I am not happy with myself so I'm working through that. We shouldn't have to be in a relationship to be happy and if we become comfortable in ourself first then if a relationship comes along we are in a place to embrace it and see where it takes us.

Posting on here has been a great help to me, chatting to others in similar situations. I hope you find the support you need and feel free to message me for a chat

Sending hugs