everything from beginning to end

I don't know. I've never been too sexual. When I'm too sexual, it's only on one day, that is when i'm left alone to do whatever I want. I don't like to be alone. i want to be around people. Unfortunately, summer just started and I think i will be stuck around the house a lot if I don't go out and do something.

I don't know. Every time I look up a new word or two, the next day I just go on masturbating. I just feel like I have not learned anything new. Sometimes I go online to look up words and if I find the meanings I'll just write them down. I need to stop that because people don't learn in one day by just jotting down a list of words. it takes time. And then pornography and masturbation just want to come and get me or something. I feel like this had to do with the fact that I had stolen a dictionary from my teacher and I never gave it back and I think I threw it in the trash instead of giving it back. I don't know.

Yeah I've done a lot of stupid things in middle school. I was on my own and I was into photos of celebrities and everything. I was always alone. I had no one to turn to. I'm just a little hung up on it. If I can forget everything, then I won't even talk about it because personally I think anyone who hears me rehash this story will find me sickening. All I'm doing is just to get rid of all the emotional garbage in my system.

by the end of seventh grade, I got to sit next to this girl who i thought was very cute and wanted to be in a relationship with. I then realized that she was somewhat perverted. Well, maybe not perverted but she did say a friend of hers dared her to ask me questions like do you masturbate? i was a little uncomfortable. I had no idea what masturbation was until I tried it the next year. Yeah, it's too much informaton. can you think of anyone in the past who's done such crazy things? who does that? I guess kids will be kids.