Change your thoughts, change your mind,
For this is the key to a happy life...
Heard this before so many times. I try listening to hypnosis recordings, positive affirmations, so on and so forth. I talked to a chaplain yesterday, and was told this again. I believe that yes if you think happy thoughts of course you could be happy. I don't know, sometimes I don't think at all, just a mind of emptiness..but then there is the sadness that invades every cell of my being still.

I will again keep trying to feel happy. I don't want to give up.

[kaliope]

its a good attitude to take, but please dont beat yourself up if it doesnt work. sometimes you just have to BE with the sadness until it works its way through. but the idea of doing good to feel good will give you moments of happiness in those dark times. i lived in the dark for a long time and thought there was no way out, but there was this little bit of me that clung to hope and finally after the right meds and therapy, the depression lifted and i havent gone back. so hang in there with that positive attitude.

[FeelingOpaque]

I tried this for a while and my mood turned for the better and I treated myself better but during the nights and when I wasn't really around people, I would just break and it was horrible. Don't know what I was doing wrong.

[Piraeus]

I believe that changing your thoughts can change your mood. It's hard to do, but not impossible. I think you are very brave for posting. You sound like your on a good path to understanding depression. You can do this. I would suggest a good therapist, and a pdoc. You may need some antidepressants.
You can also go to a general doc and get these type of meds. I hope you find what you need here at PC. Good luck

Piraeus

Yea that's what I told myself today. I feel like crap and that's the way it is. I sure hope my meds kick in. It's been almost a month.

The crazy thing is I feel better in my home. It's the thought I have to go back to work around people that saddens me. It's the social phobia I have to battle with too.

[Piraeus]

Originally Posted by kaliope

its a good attitude to take, but please dont beat yourself up if it doesnt work. sometimes you just have to BE with the sadness until it works its way through. but the idea of doing good to feel good will give you moments of happiness in those dark times. i lived in the dark for a long time and thought there was no way out, but there was this little bit of me that clung to hope and finally after the right meds and therapy, the depression lifted and i havent gone back. so hang in there with that positive attitude.

Thanks for your input. It was very positive and insightful. I'm glad you have overcome depression.

Piraeus

[FeelingOpaque]

Originally Posted by tt4713

Yea that's what I told myself today. I feel like crap and that's the way it is. I sure hope my meds kick in. It's been almost a month.

The crazy thing is I feel better in my home. It's the thought I have to go back to work around people that saddens me. It's the social phobia I have to battle with too.

That is exactly how I felt when I worked. I would even stay up for days for fear that I would wake up late and get to work late. I definitely understand the feeling.

Yea and the way I am I don't mesh well with people and I keep getting talked to. One day I'm going to snap and say "yea I am the loser you believe me to be. Just because I don't give a crap to participate in the boring gossip, that makes me a bad person. Why don't you just kiss my ***!!!"

Seriously though, some lies were told about me, and my supervisor just said people are going to talk. The more the conversation gets spread around the more bad stuff can be added to it. Would I be so bold to tell people off? Probably not, I filter what I say because I don't want to hurt anyone.

[Poppy Princess]

There can be no true suffering without hope - Bane

A poem reflecting my thoughts...



You can't know the dark without the light.
You can't know joy without pain..
With all my strength and my might,
I'm going to alter my fate..
If I just choose to give up,
And let sorrow take the stage..
I'll never know how to love,
The one that's locked in a cage..
The time will come I am sure,
I see myself come alive..
No matter what I endure..
Through dark clouds..
the sun more beautifully shines...