[Rocketeer9]

Hello yall and thank you for reading !

On my interest, ive been looking to somewhere where i could express my feelings , and i thought maybe that would be the right place. I have many issues ...
The thing is that i huess i am regretting a past choice i made because it had totally changed my life for a lot pf negativity.

First of all, i was born with a birthmak on my face, and it was pretty noticeable .

In my teenage, i was tired of living with it because of many constaints i lived with the fact of being different , etc...

Then i decided to hav it removed. But the problem is that now, i dont move.
I dont go out because i am kinda nervous and ashame of showing myself when outside. The surery has left me a scar , but mostly has changed my face . Things is i have to wear eyeglasses but i do t wear them in public because i think i might be a really igly look with the eyeglasses on .

I dont har job, nor friends, nor school. Im stck at home everyday because of my fear. I already talked to an online psychologist for an while, and she told me
That maye i dont feel like myself in the place i live because people lnew me like i was in the past so when i see them i feel shy .

Nonetheless, it make so long. My mom
Do nothig about it ... Im almos 20, and that make years i loss into this.

I just fear to be alone and grow old losing my sight , my time , my young and have no wife, no important job etc all because of these issues.

I dot live with my father( unfortunately) , but the few time i go live at his home i feel really good. I feel like i am alive , and can do everything. Because my dad pushes me in the back, ifeel like strong with him.

Sometime i think back and think if i wouldnt have done surgery i wouldnt have all these mental issues .

[Rohag]

Hello, Rocketeer9!

Originally Posted by Rocketeer9

I dot live with my father( unfortunately) , but the few time i go live at his home i feel really good. I feel like i am alive , and can do everything.

Could you spend more time with your father or near him? It may be easier for you to address your feelings while living in the atmosphere he creates for you.

[bharani1008]

Hi Rocketeer9. Welcome to PC. You've come to the right place because we all have issues also. I think you need to see a professional one way or another. You can't go on this way. There are treatments for agoraphobia and medications you can take to help you cope with your anxiety. It's really hard to be so anxious all the time and I feel for you. Anxiety saps your strength and makes you miserable. I know that when I feel anxious I just freeze up and want to hide somewhere. I have medication I can take that takes the fear away. Have you spoken to your father about all this. If he is supportive and loving then he'll want to know what is happening to you. With his encouragement you may get the courage you need to get help. Even on your own you were strong enough to find someone to talk to. Can you call the same person and if they aren't the right one for you to talk to then maybe they can recommend someone who will suit you better. Also there is a thread at the top of this forum called Depression Resources. There are so many phone numbers you can call for help and information.
You can post here as much as you need to.We are happy to talk to you and support you, but you must get help. Please call someone today.
Good luck