[goldmaiden]

I am so bored.

It's one of my problems, because i have been sick, i have trouble finding things to do.

I thought maybe a day program, for people with mental illness would be good, somewhere to go in the morning, something to do, something so i don't feel like i am wasting my life, something to make the time go faster, something to make me feel involved in something.

But i don't know.

I'm not sure of what day programs are offered.

I used to want to do one, but my then psychologist (who i hate now, for good reason), said it was for people much sicker than me. So i felt like i would be in a room of people who had no personality (no offence, i'm trying to describe very depressed or sick people), who don't talk and who act stupid (i mean i don't think they're stupid they just might have trouble thinking- i know what that's like)

So i thought, well if i am more well than that, i couldn't participate.

But the truth is that i am doing NOTHING, and have been for 5 years (I did go to Uni, but only part-time and i didn't do any work!)

So maybe i am ACTUALLY THAT sick. Do you think so?

I have a lot of trouble finding things to do, i have for these last 5 years.

Today i smoked, ate, slept, and read a little and took some notes (the only productive thing i did), also talked to a friend on then net, but we more like abused each other (we have that kind of relationship, but it's ok, he's sick too)

I do so little with my day.

It's really hard.

I don't know what to do.

I'm stuck and i feel like there are so few options.

Can anybody help?

[Mystry]

(((((((((Goldmaiden))))))))

[Perna]

Goldmaiden, I feel like I'm having a little of your trouble myself. I think I found a partial solution yesterday; I didn't want to go to the grocery store or go get my hair cut but I did anyway. Think of a few things that you "should" do or that you could think of liking to do in an alternative life :-) and do them anyway. The old adage of not being able to steer a car that isn't moving. . . applies. Get the car moving and that might help the engine start.

Can you go look into programs at school for next semester (if it's too late to start this one -- my uni has late start so my Fall course doesn't start until October 25). Or, find an online or correspondence course from an accredited school that you can transfer to yours? My uni degree, is all online but I've been taking a correspondence course from another university for credit this summer.

http://www.worldwidelearn.com/index.html

Can you join a gym and one of their exercise groups that meets regularly? Check your local papers and see if your hospital or local churches have any support groups. Maybe a little volunteer job? I love "workbooks" and have gotten jump-started before by finding a good one that got me interested in trying something? Julia Cameron's The Artist's Way or any of Barbara Sher's books. http://www.barbarasher.com/