It's Just Amazing...

Ok, so I have bronchittis...so much fun! And so I missed all my classes on Thur. First time that I missed my classes, except for math, and the ones I missed were because of bad weather, and not wanting to drive home in snow and ice in the dark. Anyway, well I missed 2 tests and a quiz. And I would have gone, but I knew that I wouldn't do good on any of them because I felt so bad. Anyway, I can't make up my math test, and the homework that I spent hours on for that class, won't be accepted...and I have to make up my biology test, but I'm not sure when, and it will be harder than the first one, and my friend took the first one and she said that it was really hard. Anyway, I mean here I am, in college, I have a job, I am trying really hard and I am starting to get so stressed out. I know that I should just relax. I know that I can do this, I mean I know I can, but still and yet, I'm just ready to quit, almost. But I won't let myself do that.

On another note, I finally saw my therapist on wed. I would barely talk to her, because I was so mad about her cancelling on me twice. She even said that she almost had to cancel on me again because another patient of her's had oded. *sigh* She basically wrote off how mad I was at her for not getting me in sooner. Saying that no one ever said it was a crisis. I don't know if it was or not, and I told her that knowing I was going to see her was what had been keeping me going...I just don't know. I'm not sure if I need a new therapist or what. I mean I really like this one, but I think maybe I have outgrown her, it just doesn't feel like she really cares anymore. Although, I don't feel like anyone cares anymore, and I just am so sick of everything, everyone. I just want to crawl into a hole and stay there forever, would make things so much easier. *sigh* I guess I just don't know....

Thanks for letting me ramble...

Later...~Me~

[b]<font color=blue> I can't take this anymore and I'm almost pretty sure that I've been here before. I can't take this any longer I won't heal until I'm stronger. Strong enough to not be afraid --Oleander[b]<font color=blue>

you can do it....
I know you can..

It is hard trying to go to school and work and then we haev to fiqure in the "deperssion" time which grows more and more when we are not watching it.. TRust me i fully understand what you are going through..

We all have to try and that is all I can say..
i am trying hard not to get more deperssed over my bad grades and I will try to keep it all going so I will pass this class. and that one and the other one..

keep your head held high.. and lean on us when you need to.. that is what we are all here for

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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sorry dreamer... make sure you say directly to her that you feel unimportant to her... and let her respond! She should know that a patient needs to feel like the T cares, and she needs to come through to you with the right response.

Were you the only one who missed the tests because of weather, or did your depression have a lot to do with it? Remember, you can get extensions and accomodations reference many things due to such inabling disorders. You have to let them know, and also find out what's allowed and have the counselor at the school assist you in this.

...I can misspeak like the best of us

((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))

Hope you get over the bronchitis, I know it is no fun.

You are doing great keeping a job and going to school. That is a big acomplishment, especialy when you don't feel well and are depressed. I hope you work everything out with your T and wish you the best. Your are a good person. I have fear of driving after dark as well and understand how the snow and ice can make it more challenging. Take care of yourself.

Best wishes,

KRIS

"I'm Not Crazy I'm Just a Little Unwell"

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!