I wasn't entirely sure where to post this but I am most comfortable here so here we go.

I feel so confused and lost, my emotion feels like a big churning ball inside me that I can't get out. I've journaled for the past 30 min, I think it only made things worse tonight instead of helping. Somewhere I have lost myself and my passion and drive for what I love and now I feel like I will never get back to where I use to be. I am not very patient. I SH for the first time tonight, just a little cut but it was something I have really never done (I've always been able to handle it in different ways). It's really not that big, hardly even noticeable but it burns. Mostly because I know I gave it to myself. I don't know if it helped or not, I think I am still in shock I actually did it...i just felt like i needed to tell someone...gosh, what am I doing?

[ringtailcat]

((horsegirl)) Do you know when/ where you seemed to lose yourself & passion for the things you enjoy? sometimes just sitting back & doing some breathing exercises helps... If you feel you want to talk more, feeel free to PM me...

[bharani1008]

I'm really worried that you did this. I hope it hurt enough that you won't want to do it again. Even so it would be good for you to write down all the help phone numbers available to you and keep them next to you phone or taped to the back of your cell. When you get that urge call someone and talk!!! The support chat is wonderful when you need access to people who will understand.
Be sure to tell your therapist what is happening. She will need to know.
Post here when you feel the pressure building up. Maybe we can help you lessen it some.
We care about you. Please post when you whenever you want to.
I hope you feel better soon.

Thank you guys so much for the support, words cant express how much it means to me. Ringtail, I have lost it over the past 6 months or so I don't know exactly when it's just felt like things are spiraling out of control. Thank you for the offer to pm. Bharani thank you, those words were so kind.