[Dubbs47]

Just seem to have bad luck all the time. Starting to think I'm cursed. Anybody else feel like that?

[bharani1008]

I'm sorry to hear that you are having a bad time. I know that sometimes things seem to be stacked against you. It's really disheartening when that happens.
You don't mention anywhere whether you are getting professional help. If you aren't then that is the first thing to do. Get a physical checkup to rule out any underlying health issues then see a psych specialist for treatment. Most people find it difficult to cope with depression alone. It's much easier if you have help. Maybe therapy would be enough for you. Maybe you need medication as well. It's very important to see your depression as a disease. That can open you up to doing whatever it takes to get better. You see so many people who are in the same situation that you are in. That's why it's so good to be in this forum. There are so many forums as you know. I saw some of your poetry and I like it a lot.
So post here as often as you want and we will listen.

[Dubbs47]

You know it's strange, I don't even feel connected here. As a matter of fact I had the username tt4713 and requested my account to be canceled. I changed my mind, but guess it was too late. I'm back, but like I said, even here I don't feel I belong. I am at the doctors now to get a med check. I started back on Wellbutrin and buspar 6 weeks ago and I still feel like crap. I should get counseling but I don't know if I can afford it now. I've been to one before and I know what they will say, but can I really change? I'm just so tired of being how I am.

[online user]

Originally Posted by Dubbs47

You know it's strange, I don't even feel connected here. As a matter of fact I had the username tt4713 and requested my account to be canceled. I changed my mind, but guess it was too late. I'm back, but like I said, even here I don't feel I belong. I am at the doctors now to get a med check. I started back on Wellbutrin and buspar 6 weeks ago and I still feel like crap. I should get counseling but I don't know if I can afford it now. I've been to one before and I know what they will say, but can I really change? I'm just so tired of being how I am.

Yes, absolutely, depression is treatable with meds and counseling. Is it cured? In some, maybe. In others of us, only treatable. But we CAN do better and feel better, and that is a worthy goal--to improve your situation from what it is today.

Susan

[1SadGypsy]

Originally Posted by online user

Yes, absolutely, depression is treatable with meds and counseling. Is it cured? In some, maybe. In others of us, only treatable. But we CAN do better and feel better, and that is a worthy goal--to improve your situation from what it is today.

Susan

Susan I agree whole heartedly with you. I'm glad I came across your post.

[Dubbs47]

Well I'm now on 50mg Zoloft , 300mg wellbutrin, and 30mg buspar a day. I also make myself go out and run and do other exercise. I try to eat healthy most of the time, and not eat a lot of sugar. I guess I don't get counseling, but I could go to a spiritual group around here if I wanted to. I do have 3 more hour long sessions with the chaplain of the spiritual group. The first session she told me to listen to positive affirmations, and to observe my thoughts. It sort of helped, but then my dog died, which was the 3rd pet to die in 4 months time. Guess that's why I feel a black cloud is hanging over me. I'm just tired of life bringing me sadness.

[lifelies]

Originally Posted by Dubbs47

Well I'm now on 50mg Zoloft , 300mg wellbutrin, and 30mg buspar a day. I also make myself go out and run and do other exercise. I try to eat healthy most of the time, and not eat a lot of sugar. I guess I don't get counseling, but I could go to a spiritual group around here if I wanted to. I do have 3 more hour long sessions with the chaplain of the spiritual group. The first session she told me to listen to positive affirmations, and to observe my thoughts. It sort of helped, but then my dog died, which was the 3rd pet to die in 4 months time. Guess that's why I feel a black cloud is hanging over me. I'm just tired of life bringing me sadness.

I can't help that much since I've not been depressed since body was 10 or so, but... There's a very useful motto. I learnt it in a quit smoking forum (ironically I still smoke). But it's the following...

"This too shall pass"

Remember this... It will pass, and you'll be tired of life bringing you happiness!
Cheers,
Lana
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[spondiferous]

Haha, 'tired of life bringing you happiness'. Good one.
Hang in there Dubbs.

[Dubbs47]

That dear old dog was my walking partner, the only one in my house that would take a lovely walk on a beautiful trail with me.

Thanks ill hang in there, I know things are tons worse for other people.