[Cinema]

I'm gonna say the same thing I said in the daily check in
Today was just a bad day, it started out good, I went to personal training, I did great aside from the fact that I almost fainted. Then later in the day my aunt and uncle came over with their new 6 week old baby. I made her smile, held her, calmed her down when she was crying, and I was happy, aside from when my great grandma said 'in about 5 years you'll get married and have one of your own.' It took everything I had to not burst into tears right then and there. Because, 1: my soulmate, the only man I've ever loved and wanted, dosent wanna give me children, and 2: we have been broken up for 3 months now and as much as I know he loves me and everyone tells me he's just being stupid and he'll come back soon, I'm shell of what I used to be when I was happy with him, Im not who he fell in love with, I'm depressed, I can't eat without throwing up after, I have to gather up all that I have left of my willpower just to get up in the morning. I know that one day he'll ask me were his cheery and bright Sonya went, all I can say is, 'you put the final nail in her coffin.'

And to add to that, I've been sobbing uncontrollably for an hr now and I just feel like I want to fall off the face of the earth, too bad it's not flat.

[online user]

So sorry you are smarting from your breakup so badly that comments hurt you so. Time will help heal the wounds. Great that you did your training and enjoyed most of the visit with your aunt, uncle and the baby.

Be kind to yourself, take care of you, for you. Do let yourself grieve, too, that's part of healing.

[Cinema]

Originally Posted by online user

So sorry you are smarting from your breakup so badly that comments hurt you so. Time will help heal the wounds. Great that you did your training and enjoyed most of the visit with your aunt, uncle and the baby.

Be kind to yourself, take care of you, for you. Do let yourself grieve, too, that's part of healing.

I would love to believe that, but unfortunately time has only made the wounds worse. And it's not helping that I can't sleep without him, well, unless I wanna wake up screaming and crying from nightmares.

I know exactly...exactly how you feel. I was in that place myself only a week ago. There is no magic save on this one...only time. Keep posting here...we care and want to help...even if it's just to listen. It meant so much to me to have someone hear me.

No platitudes...just remember ... we care. It's a window to annonymity, some will say, this monitor screen...but behind it, in these rooms are real people. And we care.

[gracez]

Just wanted to say hi - though I have no specific advice. That's a lot happening for you. Why not scream and cry? it's natural. I do a lot. I hear it can be a physical release? Don't know. But to me it feels physically better than the times I have to hide it because I'm in public or living with someone. I used to scream while driving sometimes when I couldn't make a ruckus in the house.

Hugs