I am so pathetic

I saw my therapist tonight and couldn't even talk. I am so exhausted and feel like crap. When I am at work and around people I can fake it but when j am alone I am so irritable and feel worthless.

Now my therapist is concerned about me and that makes me feel pathetic and guilty. I signed a release so she could call my doctor. Looks like I am headed towards a medication adjustment, which I don't want to do.

I just don't want to live anymore and those thoughts scare the crap out of me.

I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so much right now. maybe a med adjustment is called for if you are having the thoughts you are having. I know the right meds were the solution for me. turned my world around. I hope things start looking up for you. crook32

Please don't end your life. Please you can get through this...

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Hi...I know exactly how it feels. I find it difficult just to talk all the time. The difference from you and me is I don't even try to fake it at work. I'm actually sitting at work right now typing this and I don't care. I openly tell people I'm depressed. I've been through a lot of treatment options including in-patient hospitalization so I'm there fighting it with you. Just don't give up.

Depression is the biggest bully in our town. ( depression forum). Sometimes it just gets the better of us and we have to give ourselves the same patience and kindness we would give someone else and just start again. It doesn't matter if you need a med change. It will make you feel better. I've never been in therapy but I can't imagine just suddenly telling a stranger all my stuff. Anyway she is probably so used to this and will wait until you are comfortable.
Keep trying. You're doing all the right things. You've taken all the good steps to get better.
Good luck.

Last night was rough. I was tossing and turning all night. All I can think about is ending things and that scares me. I don't think I would ever do anything though.

I still feel terrible about my session last night. I wasted everyone's time.

Now it is time to go into work and put on my fake happy face.

I agree that a med change seems to be in order. I hope everything gets better for you soon.
Gayle

Don't be upset it shows that their is a problem which has caused so much stress that it left you speechless. It will be OK hang in there my friend. Please don't end your life.

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