[poptart316]

I've been depressed for a long time, I've been suicidal and having a hard time getting myself to do anything. To make things worse my boyfriend just broke up with me and I'm withdrawaling from risperdal. I woke up early today, I got it in my head that I was going to be more productive and had a bit of motivation.. I took a shower, ate, made some phone calls, got some stuff done to my car and then I decided to go to the park and take pictures.. I got there and started taking pictures but couldn't get into it, I didn't feel like walking around, I didn't like dealing with my camera, I didn't like being at the park and felt depressed, tired, and just wanted to go home so I left. I don't think I enjoy living.. I don't know what to do.

[gayleggg]

So sorry you are feeling so down. With already having depression and losing your boyfriend, too, I'm not surprised you are especially down. I, too, am depressed so I understand the not wanting to do anything. At least, you tried to get out and do something. That's a start. I can't seem to push myself to do anything outside of work. And I have to do that. It's all I can do to hold it together during the workday. I hope you continue to try and get out and do a few things. I know it will help you feel better. It's good you have a hobby with your camera. Keep trying to take those pictures. I hope you feel better soon.
Gayle

[bharani1008]

It sounds like you are making a real effort to get out of your depression. I feel so much for you regarding your break up. That is so painful. Does your doc know about this. Is it a good time to wean off of a med? You need even more support now with the break up. I wish I could help but I suck at relationships. Does the relationship forum help?
Hope you get through this OK

[poptart316]

Originally Posted by bharani1008

It sounds like you are making a real effort to get out of your depression. I feel so much for you regarding your break up. That is so painful. Does your doc know about this. Is it a good time to wean off of a med? You need even more support now with the break up. I wish I could help but I suck at relationships. Does the relationship forum help?
Hope you get through this OK

I'm weaning off of them myself. I stopped receiving services at the place I was going to. I kept missing my appointments so I decided to stop going and my therapist thought it was a good idea if I went somewhere else and even if my case was still open, I wouldn't be able to see my doctor till the end of the month.

Sounds like me.