[njbjpdjadm221]

I don't know that I'm depressed or not. I'm thinking there's a big possibility that this is just how my personality is and the people telling me that I'm depressed are wrong. I say this because I'm not really sure how to be any different than how I am now. I don't remember a time when I wasn't like this. I really don't know what kind of person I would be if I were different. Maybe nothing. Either way, it's like I'm in hell right now. This sucks and I can't be like this forever.

[gayleggg]

Either way, it's like I'm in hell right now. This sucks and I can't be like this forever.

From these two statements it indicates that you might be depressed. However, I am not a professional and can't diagnosis anything but it sounds like you need help. I would speak to a counselor or doctor about your feelings. Hopefully they can get you some help.

Keep reading and posting on PC. It's a great place to share feelings and get feedback.
Gayle

I've felt this way about myself. Probably because there's always been something missing in my life. Such as friends. And confidence.

[avlady]

I also wish I had more friends I'm basically down to my husband and son right now. I do wish i could get into some type of day treatment, but have no transportation.

[bharani1008]

From what i read on your profile, it seems that you can't quite make up your mind to do anything about your situation. You're not sure if you are depressed or not. Please don't feel foolish asking for help. You will feel better if you do something to help yourself. That means seeing a dr or counselor to be diagnosed and get treatment if that is what you need. I think that it will be a bit difficult to move ahead until you address this issue. If you aren't ready to do that then maybe you can read some of the information on this site. Post here and read the the posts. You may gain some encouragement from knowing that you are not alone.
I hope you get the help you need.