[Poppy Princess]

I'm scared I might be depressed always. I can't think of anything more I can do. I feel like I've gone through every option. Meds, therapy, exercise, self affirmations. I don't want to stay this way. I just want it to go away.

[happy 2 b here]

Hi Poppy

I struggle with the same realization -- I have lived with depression/anxiety, etc., since I can remember, and I am now 65 years old

PM me, if you want to talk -- I, too, am looking for something, right now, as I am wanting to stop taking antidepressants

[Hong Kong Fluey]

Hey Poppy,

I know this is tough for you, many of us have been there. But you WILL get thru this, I promise.

You are not alone thru this. And thru this you will get x

[online user]

For some of us, yes, the battle with depression is life-long. But I can attest that it does get better, with exercise, meds & better ways of dealing with things (therapy can help here). Living with my depression now is so much better than it was 30 years ago~~ Many people envy me now, and I have to deal with that--isn't that a switch?

Hope you feel better soon.

[Poppy Princess]

I know but I've been doing therapy, meds, and exercise. It hasn't been helping me. Especially therapy.

[Poppy Princess]

Gosh, I'm whiny

I just don't know how long I can chew on broken glass without bleeding.

[online user]

Sometimes things take a long time to see improvement, unfortunately. Maybe you have to jut look at a day at a time for awhile...like, what you you anbsolutely HAVE to do today? Do it, then reward yourself with something you'd like to do.

Don't worry about the big picture for awhile. Let yourself go with the flow,work the program, take your meds, keep your appointments, then see how you are doing and feeling somewhere down the road. Might help.

I have been trudging thru depression since I was young and now I am not all that far from 50.
(damn, really...sheesh...where the heck did my life go?)
I have had ups and downs but mostly tried to fix it myself and all I did was eff it up worse than you can imagine.
It may seem like a never ending battle; and I agree, for some of us it is. I don't like that realization but I can't handle the alternative, so I will just keep on keeping on...no matter what.
There surely must be some things in this life that make you happy....all I can suggest is to grasp those things and hold on for dear life.
Music gets me thru this hell.
I don't know where I would be without it.

[Poppy Princess]

Thanks, that's good advice.

I've lately had to keep rushing to the bathroom in public places to cry. I was teaching an art class at the library and my eyes kept swelling with tears. I left to go the bathroom twice. All I did was sob though. I've never cried so hard

[Poppy Princess]

I feel like dying. I'm just so sick. I don't see anything. All I think of is death

[gayleggg]

I am going through the same thing right now. I'm always starting to cry. Wishing I would just die from something. I'm 61 and have battled with depression most of my life. Did have a few manic spells in there but I can barely remember them. I'm so consumed with this pain and none of the things that you mentioned help me either. I've tried so many meds that have either made matters worse or just didn't work. I'm not sure how I keep going but I know it's a day at a time. I hope you do the same because every day we make through there is hope for the next one. At least, that's what I keep telling myself. Keep trying. Good luck
Gayle

[too SHy]

Sometimes I am so very ill I can't even think for the pain. If I can I keep telling myself "it WILL lift up" and if I just hang on by my fingernails if I HAVE TO it does.