[Rayvon]

For as long as I remember, I have never really fit in with the social "norm". I have always felt like an outcast and I am unable to converse with strangers or be in areas with large crowds without feeling hopeless and trapped. I have tried countless meds, all of which have not worked for me. I am at a breaking point in my life and the thoughts and dreams I am having have started to scare me. I have talked with my counselor, but it feels as though I am getting nowhere and that I come to the end of my available options. I am constantly feeling like everyone is out to get me, even though I know they aren't. Every time I meet someone new it's a horrifying experience. I always think the worst and I am constantly imagining that everyone I know and talk to look down on me and put me down in their minds. So much so that it feels so utterly real when it happens in my head that I honestly start to believe it.

[pandarama123456789]

I used to be utterly terrified of any social contact, it was a very hard time in my life and I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this
It can be very hard to have social problems, it was something that caused me the most pain, but we're all here for you on PC I'm not really sure how I was able to get over it, being around people, I guess I just tried to change the way I viewed them to male myself feel like I was in control of the situation. My counselor told me a while back that you learn about people and who they are by how they react to you, I think that's when I started to change my view a little and be able to open up to some people who I've become close to.
I hope we'll be able to give you some support

[Rayvon]

Thanks, It's nice knowing that I am not alone in this nightmare and that there are others who have shared what I go through.

Originally Posted by pandarama123456789

I used to be utterly terrified of any social contact, it was a very hard time in my life and I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this
It can be very hard to have social problems, it was something that caused me the most pain, but we're all here for you on PC I'm not really sure how I was able to get over it, being around people, I guess I just tried to change the way I viewed them to male myself feel like I was in control of the situation. My counselor told me a while back that you learn about people and who they are by how they react to you, I think that's when I started to change my view a little and be able to open up to some people who I've become close to.
I hope we'll be able to give you some support

[htebsiL radnalaS]

Originally Posted by Rayvon

For as long as I remember, I have never really fit in with the social "norm". I have always felt like an outcast and I am unable to converse with strangers or be in areas with large crowds without feeling hopeless and trapped. I have tried countless meds, all of which have not worked for me. I am at a breaking point in my life and the thoughts and dreams I am having have started to scare me. I have talked with my counselor, but it feels as though I am getting nowhere and that I come to the end of my available options. I am constantly feeling like everyone is out to get me, even though I know they aren't. Every time I meet someone new it's a horrifying experience. I always think the worst and I am constantly imagining that everyone I know and talk to look down on me and put me down in their minds. So much so that it feels so utterly real when it happens in my head that I honestly start to believe it.

I understand about feeling like an outcast. I remember once telling my therapist that I always feel so different. She said, "I think you like being different." That has stayed with me for over 20 years. She was right. And that was the day I began to embrace my different-ness.

I wonder if part of what you're feeling is a pressure to be like everyone else. If being like other people means removing a part of your soul, please don't. Yes, it will be hard. And when it's hard I remind myself that I like being alone and I like my choices however different they may be.

[Lonelygirl0505]

I feel the same way as well, your not alone and I feel good knowing that for myself. I used to get picked on in school and still do to this day. I've never fitted in and when I tried, I would try way too hard. I've learned to take it and not cry about it, it never felt any better when I would cry. Try not to dwell on as to why but as on how you can make is this is why. Its confusing. I know, but it's helped me. Im here for you and I share your emotions.