a month

Hey Guys,

I decided yesterday I'll give it a month and then make a decision. In the next month I have a couple things going for work and some stuff going for relationships. If everything goes bust then I think that it's pointless to continue. If it works out then I will move onto another chapter in my life. It's weird to put a deadline on meaning but I think that trying to get analytical with my life is the best option. I'm not sure if any of you ever thought about it like that but that's how I feel. I don't think I can keep turning to medication to try and be emotionally stable. It's just not right.

I hope you guys are doing better.

I'm not sure if you're referring to sui like I think you are... but I don't really know what to tell you. That is a very black and white decision and life isn't really that black and white. However, a lot can happen in a month. I say, if you're going to give it a month as you say, you should make the most out of it. Do things you've never done, meet people you've never met, go places you've never gone. If you spend the month doing the same thing you've been doing, then its unlikely you're going to see much value in life. This would be a step that requires a lot of action on your part, are you willing to do it? Also, I bet that if you spend a month whole heartedly engaging in the world around you, you might just find that life is worth living.

Well, unhappy camper, some of us need meds to make us normal. We don't have the right mix of brain chemicals because of genetic "snafus". I am thankful that I have mine and have a pretty fine life, maintained by the meds.

Hope you will give living your life your best shot and be rational about what life deals you.