Really struggling

I'm really considering just leaving school. I don't really feel like I'm excited about psychology as I used to be. I don't really feel like I have a future in this field. I'm not excited about the future, I'm actually scared. I want to drop out of school but I don't want to disappoint my mom, and I feel like that would just prove to everyone that I'm a loser.

Sometimes I want to hurt myself because I don't think there's a chance for me to get better. I'm nothing and I'll always be nothing. It's really hard. No one cares about me, not even my family. I don't have any friends and I'm scared to tell anyone. I don't want anyone to think I'm crazy and send me to a hospital.

I have one friend at school that has been trying to convince me to go to the counseling center on campus. I've gone once before last semester and now I've been thinking of going again. She said that she would be willing to take me over there if I asked. She knows very little about me at this point, but she told me she was worried about me. She seems like she cares, but I'm not sure I can trust her and I don't want to worry her more. I know it would be wrong to disclose everything, but I really just looking for some support from anyone and she's the first person that has shown any interest in me at all in a while.

I'm really just looking for some advice.

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way, I feel for you. If you went to see the counncellor maybe it would help and to put things into perspective. That was my problem, I hated talking about myself and how I "felt". I went to see a therapist for 6 months and when I got to know her it was a relief to talk to somebody who was objective. I do hope that you see somebody and dont make any rash decisions. Take care of yourself. Best wishes.