[Psyclox]

I feel so low tonite my hearts in piecies, I feel so alone in the world, like there is no more happiness inside me, tonite I broke into Brendas email and stole pictures of Gareth from her, I looked at them and thought to myself why would sum1 so happy kill themselves and now I know why, he was my friend and he is gone I miss him so much, I still havent cried yet and its been ten months already, next month is his birthday what am I to do then, Brenda and I have ceased all contact with one another for good reasons though with her in my life even though I love her she was killing me, she broke my heart and for that I am dead, life is so empty these past couple months for I have experienced four other deaths in my life this year I have lost five people I knew very well my Friend Gareth, my friends cousin Gino, my friends mom and an old high school friend all due to suicide, then there was my friend Pamela who died in a car accident, the is no good for me, it makes me feel so empty and alone in the world, I am a emptyn shell of my former exsistance. The pictures of Gareth show him at his happiest, why couldnt I have saved him? WHY?

[JustAPixie]

(((((((( Psyclox ))))))))

I'm so sorry for all the loss you have to endure... it must be ripping you apart!!!!!!! Don't blame yourself for not being able to save him... how could you??? You have enough to live with as it is. I wish I could be of more help to you, but I know so little... I hope somewhere in this you will be able to find peace for your mind. Death is just another part of life, and I know sometimes it just hurts too much...