[alf0156]

i feel like i am spyroling down further every day. I now feel like my friends are just my friends because i have money and i am being used. I know it is not the case. I also feel that the rest of the world is collaborating to get me some way. Everyone that was my friend now hates me and those who are still my friend i feel used. I have only told a select few what is truly going on with me mentally (no one here) and when i do i usually get a cold shoulder like there is something wrong with me. So i just keep my happy mask on for the rest of the world to see so know one really knows what is going on inside me. i am eating my self from the inside out because i don't trust people. not even my therapist.

[Bethsway]

I know what you mean about the happy face...sometimes people shy away because they do not know how to help us ! Hope things get better for you soon!!

[alf0156]

so do i, i fight thaughts everyday. know one knows how bad i want to do things every time i think about it bit i force my self not to act apon them and i get past it for the moment. then a few min go by and the thaughts are back

[alf0156]

i now figured out i am just being used by my friends, they only come around whin i get payed and hang out for 2 days then whin i am broke they are gone. they are not frinds anymore. i am back to being alone in the world.

[JustAPixie]

((((((((( alf )))))))))))

[(JD)]

Well, you were alone even when they were there mooching off ya! Now you will have more money to do the things you want to!