[Veesnothing28]

Hi, I'm new to this forum, and I'm writing because I am severely depressed. My depression has taken a turn for the worse and I feel like I can't go on anymore. It's any overwhelming feeling. I feel like all of my pain and struggles will go away if I'm not here anymore. I've waited and waited for things to get better, but nothing has. It's getting worse...my life and my mental state. I cannot see how continuing on in the best decision. Things really are as bad as I perceive them to be. If anyone knew the whole story, (or my whole story) I know for a fact that they would agree. I think that anyone who knew my history would wonder why I am still alive. It is that bad. And I know that other people have it just as bad as I do, and many might know how to cope better. But, me, I do not know how to deal with the severity of what's going on with me. I do not have the resources needed to seek medical attention for anti-depressants, or a therapist. Besides I feel like a therapist will reject me just like everyone else I know. I do not have not one person who cares about me, or anyone I could talk to. So, I'm left to draw on my own conclusions, which has led me to believe that I don't belong here. Things are getting to be too much for me, and I can't see any other way out. I don't know if I am wrong for feeling this way or not. I just want my pain to end. I don't want to live anymore...not like this. But, my situation is not temporary, it's permanent.

Thanks for reading

[Miss_M]

Hang in there, Veesnothing. That's what this community is for: to help you and give you someone to talk to about what you're dealing with. I'm new here too, but everything I've seen so far has been helpful.
We're here to talk to, so talk to us and we'll try to help you. I can't promise that any of us know how to make pain go away, but we can help each other along the way trying to get to that point.

[Pierro]

Hello Veesnothing, I am so sorry that you have to go through this alone. Is there a teacher that you are comfortable talking too. If not as Miss M says that you can always lend an ear here on PC. I was reading your last post and your family don't support you at all ?. Is it that they don't listen or you feel they don't care about you. Best wishes.

[Veesnothing28]

Originally Posted by Miss_M

Hang in there, Veesnothing. That's what this community is for: to help you and give you someone to talk to about what you're dealing with. I'm new here too, but everything I've seen so far has been helpful.
We're here to talk to, so talk to us and we'll try to help you. I can't promise that any of us know how to make pain go away, but we can help each other along the way trying to get to that point.

Thanks. I'm gad there are places like this for people who have absolutely nowhere to turn.

[Veesnothing28]

Originally Posted by Pierro

Hello Veesnothing, I am so sorry that you have to go through this alone. Is there a teacher that you are comfortable talking too. If not as Miss M says that you can always lend an ear here on PC. I was reading your last post and your family don't support you at all ?. Is it that they don't listen or you feel they don't care about you. Best wishes.

Well, no. I'm not a student, although I was when my depression started. But, now I'm just an adult who is paralyzed by depression, and no support system. No friends, and in my eyes, no family. And, no, there is no one I can talk to, although it probably would help. Are you an adult? If so, are you depressed? And, how are you managing it? I want to know because I'm not being treated right now, and my depression is getting worse by the day. I already don't want to go on anymore. But, I'm trying to hang on. If I do decide to stay, I have got to find a way to cope. Any suggestions?

[Poppy Princess]

I wish I could give a suggestion. I'm barely coping myself. I'm never happy either

[themonster7]

You don't want to die, you just want your pain to end. I can honestly tell you that it can get better. It has for me, at least as long as I haven't been drinking it's better. Just please don't give up. Life is worth more than this stupid disease, please find a reason to keep going and stick to it. Things can get better.

[Pierro]

Veesnothing, I would urge you too see a Health professional as you may need to be on meds, and I know that they can bring there own problems but for some people they have helped turn their lives around. Yes I am an adult, how do I cope? Thats a good one. For one I am on medication for depression, I also have insomnia. For the last few days things have been better than they have in a long time. I have a great husband who is very supportive and was there for me when I had psychosis. Did you have your thyroid checked. I am not a doctor but my G.P. said it can have a big part to play in your mood. Coping is getting help for yourself. I dont know where you are in the world but I would hope that you would have access to a doctor. That is the first step. I am sory I dont have any words of wisdom for you but I do hope you get help. Keep posting

Veesnothing, is there a county clinic or facility that you could go to for free? Research shows there's an organic basis for severe depression. I think an antidepressant would be a great place to start.

There is hope. One day at a time. We're all rooting for you here, so please keep posting.

[avlady]

Yes, check your thyroid out, i have hypothryoidism, you may need synthroid. Hypothroidism causes depression i know all too well.