[IcryWhoAmI]

I feel so crappy about moaning all the time, but I can't stop it.
I feel like I'm always waiting for someone to tell me what to do next, because I guess that's what I've been used to.
For example, at school, I always needed someone next to me to tell me what to do because I would've been too distracted, daydreaming about becoming a superhero or something stupid like that, to pay attention to anything going on. Throughout my life I've always had at least one person next to me telling me what to do next.
I've never had someone push me in the right direction exactly, just someone there to give me ideas or something, so now I have no one to tell me and I just feel so lost. I've no idea in which direction to take, where I should be going, or what I should be doing.
It distresses me so much. I cry about it sometimes, because I feel like my life is going nowhere and probably never will. I see all these talented people everywhere and I get so jealous and envious and then I'll feel even worse. I'm not worth being here, what's the point in having a life when I can't do anything with it. It's just so hopeless. I feel more dead than anything, I feel like a lost soul.
A lost soul that nobody cares about.

[gayleggg]

IcryWhoAmI, you are cared about here. Is there anyway you could get counseling? Something that you could talk through your doubt. We are always envious at times, there always seem to have people that seem more together or have more that we do. Just reading in the forums you can that some people have it much worse and are better. You just have to find what it is that would make you happy. Maybe it could college or a fun job. Just some things to think about. I understand depression, I'm depressed. And it is bad. i can't see why I'm still here. But I keep going one step at a time. I hope you get professional help, It could make a world of difference.

[Rohag]

I understand you are exceptionally shy and would have great difficulty in approaching someone for help, yes? Have you tried different forms of self-help?

Originally Posted by IcryWhoAmI

I feel like I'm always waiting for someone to tell me what to do next, because I guess that's what I've been used to.

Trying to understand the ins and outs of your passivity may provide useful insights. Genetics are always in the picture somewhere, but what was it about your life and family that nurtured - even required - the development of passive tendencies?

[IcryWhoAmI]

Originally Posted by Rohag

I understand you are exceptionally shy and would have great difficulty in approaching someone for help, yes? Have you tried different forms of self-help?

Trying to understand the ins and outs of your passivity may provide useful insights. Genetics are always in the picture somewhere, but what was it about your life and family that nurtured - even required - the development of passive tendencies?

I am extremely shy. I've always been like it. I don't know why I'm so passive either, it's the same as my shyness, it's always been there.