[Freewilled]

I am so depressed and no real reason to show for it. I keep having bad thoughts like nobody cares about me and I'm a loser...many more too. I have morbid thoughts and images...I won't do anything because I can't do that to my child who needs me. I can't tell my T because I can't risk being hospitalized if he over reacts. I'm not so sure therapy is helping or even can really help much anyway cause I'm not completely honest. I feel like Im floating away and nobody really cares. I can't sleep. I'm either overeating or eating nothing all day. I'm smoking too much. Im just spiraling. I don't know what to do about all of this

[Rohag]

Hello, Freewilled.

Originally Posted by Freewilled

I am so depressed and no real reason to show for it.

Practically speaking, depression doesn't care about reasons, but you already know that too well.

A downward spiral is something your T needs to know. Have you or can you tell your T about the visible signs of this spiral, the symptoms such as excessive smoking, unstable appetite and insomnia that can be seen? Can you talk in general about "very low mood?" (Personally, I regard insomnia as a Big Deal.)

Ideally you should be able to freely share with your T without fear of overreaction. Do you have reason to believe your T would overreact? Do you have the emotional capability to be more honest with your T?

No need to answer these questions; they are just for you to consider.

i feel that way a lot, like no one cares (in reality, for certain!)

and as for online, well... i'm just another name on a screen- like everyone else on here

if something happened to me tomorrow, i doubt anyone would even notice

[allme]

I feel the same way

Sorry you're feeling like this

[AceHaven]

I feel the same way most of the time. Feel like my friends and family don't really notice how I'm hurting. I was actually told once by someone to not look for validation from others, but I'm just looking for someone to actual notice me and care.